- My darling little boy <3
- Bret Hart!!!
- My frds who stuck by me thru thick n thin
- My wonderful family
- D no. '2'
- Burberry Candy Pink/Blue Label
- Radley
- Strawberries/cranberries & bitter chocolate
- Forming pictures n stories wif clouds
- Sunset
- Ice cold beer/Merlot
- Strawberry Margarita!
♥ w|sH|nG uPoN a sHoOt|nG sTaR
- For my loved 1s to be well n healthy
- To someday be Mrs L..n :)
- See Bret Hart!!!
- A cute little doggie of our own!
- Taiwan trippie!!
- Redang trippie
- Europe trippie
- Spend Xmas in Calagry
- A room filled wif tatty bears
- Love isn't finding a perfect person. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly -
I m a simple ger, living in d beautiful, dreamy world my dearest little boy has created 4 us. He has simplified my world of complications.
"Sm1 who holds me at my weakest, sees me at my ugliest, and a heart that still loves me at my worst."
I wan 2 b remembered as d ger who alwys mks u exasperated but canot stop laughing, finds her irritating yet enduring, d ger who brings a smile 2 ur face even wen she canot find her own.
Blessed wif wonderful frds, families n d sweetest love. To all dose who haf left footprints in my life, if dey haf've been blown away by d wind, I'd prob haf 4gtten abt u, n u'd prob nt b reading dis. But for dose who haf left a mark in my heart, I'll hold u dear in me forever. Tks 4 makg such a big diff in my life (:
~ 我的最大幸褔是发现了我爱你 ~ Current state of mind:
"If only smiles r reflections of wat d heart feels, love will b real. If only love is untainted without deceit, fairytales will come true. If only u believe, dere'll alwys b me & u."
♥ My Yester-years
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Sunday, December 30, 2007
Hapi new yr's eve eve e1 :) Jus in case I don get 2 blog b4 midnite tmr, I shall pen my thots for 2007 nw. I'm using my desktop nw cos my dad's cleaning my room n it's freaking dusty. Haven been using dis desktop since little boy got me my lappie. Kinda lost where all d files r :P
Isit me or did 2007 pass by in a whizz? Mb as a person ages, e'yr will seem like a fleeting memory. It's d 1st time I started off d yr n m ending it wif d same guy. N he's still as swt n loving 2wds me, if nt sweeter n more loving, as a yr ago (expect 4 some occasional ... :P). I hope d rest of d yrs of my life will b d same too :)
2007 has been a relatively gd yr 4 me. Nt onli did I celebrate 1 yr wif little boy, I'm oso d closest I've ever been wif my family. Since young I've nv reali been close 2 my parents n tt short moving out a couple yrs back din do tgs any good. Mb I've been stubborn but dere were some tgs I cldnt let go off since childhood. But smhw, dis yr, w/o even hafg 2 reali try, it seems our rship got better.
Work-wise, ntg much 2 brag abt but ntg much 2 complain abt either. Collegs r nice, work's quite easy..I'm waitin 4 my bonus 2 c if I shd cont anor yr or start reading d job ads tt Jobstreet sends me again.
Friends-wise, I've got d best 1s in d world. I had 2 bid farewell 2 1 of them dis yr but I believe he's in a better place, lookin dwn at us, smiling :) Tt thot is enuff 2 make me smile as well.
2007 has been a yr of short getaways. Bintan, Genting, Batam, Desaru. Tho d places were jus neighbouring islands, it was still nice 2 travel wif my loved 1s, even if it was onli 4 d day. Little boy promised 2 bring me 2 Taiwan nxt yr n I wana go HK n prob Bangkok or some resort wif Di n Ter :)
I was readin my old blog (which was onli known to abt 3 ppl). It had alot of poems n lyrics I made up 2 vent my sadness n frustrations. I kept tt blog for d last 4 mths I was wif Joe; nt 1 post was a hapi post. Nt even during my bdae..
"My steps feel so heavy. The clouds r so dark..they r no longer the brite brite clouds which I can imagine pics & form fairytales from. The clouds r dark & menacing but it jus doesn't rain. There's no relief. Whichever direction I take leads me to a road filled with shattered glass pieces, a road which leads me to nowhere. & I haf no shoes. Each step feels like a tonne. Each piece of glass cuts deeply into my sole. But surprisingly, I don feel the pain. I jus con't walking & walking & walking. The road has no destination, neither does it haf a U-turn. So I jus walk & walk & walk...There's no1 else with me. Onli the darkness of the clouds, the blood on my soles, a tired heart, broken promises & shattered dreams..."
Jus by reading dose painful words, I felt as tho I was re-living tt nitemare again. I promised myself I'll nv go back 2 tt life again. 2007 oso marks my stepping away frm him. If 3 yrs of lies n empty promises were nt enuff 4 mi 2 realize he'll nv change, d way he treated his mom finali was. His words don affect me nimore :)
A quote I made up in tears den, makes me smile nw..
"True love canot b found where it truly does not exist..nor can it b hidden where it truly does."
So true isnt it? :) Fame, intelligence, wealth..u may haf etg but ur life isnt complete til u find love. N I've found d hardest 1, d 1 tt completes my life :) Haf u?
I don usuali believe in resolutions but I shall make 1 for 2008 - I wont let a single person determine my happiness or sadness. No1 has tt kinda rite over any person's life to do tt :) N of cos, as usual, all d ppl who r in my life nw, will still b in it 4 d nxt yr :) I dono wat 2008 has in store 4 me but wif little boy holding my hand wif e'step I take, I noe dere's ntg I canot overcome (:
B4 I pen off, here's wishing e1 who reads my blog a Hapi Hapi 2008 n stay healthy alwys :) Hapi new yr's eve eve, little 1s! :D
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Sunday, December 30, 2007
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