- My darling little boy <3
- Bret Hart!!!
- My frds who stuck by me thru thick n thin
- My wonderful family
- D no. '2'
- Burberry Candy Pink/Blue Label
- Radley
- Strawberries/cranberries & bitter chocolate
- Forming pictures n stories wif clouds
- Sunset
- Ice cold beer/Merlot
- Strawberry Margarita!
♥ w|sH|nG uPoN a sHoOt|nG sTaR
- For my loved 1s to be well n healthy
- To someday be Mrs L..n :)
- See Bret Hart!!!
- A cute little doggie of our own!
- Taiwan trippie!!
- Redang trippie
- Europe trippie
- Spend Xmas in Calagry
- A room filled wif tatty bears
- Love isn't finding a perfect person. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly -
I m a simple ger, living in d beautiful, dreamy world my dearest little boy has created 4 us. He has simplified my world of complications.
"Sm1 who holds me at my weakest, sees me at my ugliest, and a heart that still loves me at my worst."
I wan 2 b remembered as d ger who alwys mks u exasperated but canot stop laughing, finds her irritating yet enduring, d ger who brings a smile 2 ur face even wen she canot find her own.
Blessed wif wonderful frds, families n d sweetest love. To all dose who haf left footprints in my life, if dey haf've been blown away by d wind, I'd prob haf 4gtten abt u, n u'd prob nt b reading dis. But for dose who haf left a mark in my heart, I'll hold u dear in me forever. Tks 4 makg such a big diff in my life (:
~ 我的最大幸褔是发现了我爱你 ~ Current state of mind:
"If only smiles r reflections of wat d heart feels, love will b real. If only love is untainted without deceit, fairytales will come true. If only u believe, dere'll alwys b me & u."
♥ My Yester-years
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Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Haf u ever had 2 jugs of beer, lots of cigarette smoke n peanuts 4 dinner? Tt was my dinner last nite. Went 2 a pub wif my collegue after wk ytd. He bluff me say wan go dinner..we ended up in d pub tt he wks part-time. Oh guess wat! I even sang in d hall ok. Nt a big deal la, but considering I was sm1 who can sit at ktv n nt sing a word 4 5 hrs..tt shd b quite an accomplishment ba. Hees..den stayed 2 watch d pool competition tt he was MC-ing 4. My gdness. Dose ppl can play pool man. Tt pl is reali nice. Small small de den d ppl dere super friendly cos dey all noe each otr. U can even order fd dere. He forced me 2 share a pkt of rice after I finished 1 jug of beer. I tell u..Beer n rice do not go well 2gtr. *pukes* Was talkg 2 d dancer..she's so nice. Think mb I'll go n wk in a pub soon. Seems fun n I can drink 4 free oso. Hehes..
Time seems 2 fly at wk. E'day it's figures n words after 1 anor. Don haf time 2 absorb 1 topic, d nxt topic finish le. Blehz. But luckily d ppl dere quite dun n we all dono 2gtr..at least I don feel left out. Haas..
Super tired. Supp 2 go bk 2 d pub 2nite again cos he's MC-ing again 4 a ktv contest. Canot tahan. I cld barely kp my eyes open during d whole of training 2dae. Nd 2 rest if nt tmr I'll haf 2 bring a pillow 2 work.
Sighs..I miss my wkend. I miss u.
Oh. 1-stick, u qu si ba.
7:41 PM
Saturday, November 26, 2005
All d words tt were alrd washed away by d rain, smhw d wind brot them all bk again last nite. I'm reali v.v.touched but I reali dono wat I can do nimore. Dere seems 2 b ntg I can do..even tho I v.much wan 2...
Slpt 4 3 hrs. Smhw, canot slp nimore. I m v.tired but my eyes cant close le. E'image in my mind is still so vivid, e'word is still so clear. Xin hao tong..
I reali dono wat 2 do....
L.O.S.T.
8:51 AM
Had a v.v.peaceful day 2dae. No crazy woman bombarding me wif crazy msgs. No exasperating, heart-wrenching words.
I was lookg out of d window frm my training room..d view is reali beautiful. Can c so far. Etg looks so near, yet in reality, dey r all so far away. Xin hao kong, but peaceful. Still tinkg of sm1 far far away...but like d river, etg had been washed away by d rain alrd...
Work was exhuasting as usual. Words, words n more words. Nv-ending pgs of figures n words. My gdness. I reali dono hw 2 absorb all dis. Jus gotta try my best. It's maddening but well, at least it takes my mind off otr tgs 4 awhile. Time passes much faster wen u don notice it. Sighs..
After wk supp 2 go mt bean 4 din din. She made me wait soooo long. Lucky my collegue nice enuff 2 pei mi walk frm Raffles Pl all d way to Chinatown. Reached dere still 2 early so we cont'ed walkg. He said he's bringin mi 2 a v.secret pl..muz kp d secret 4 him. Guess where it is. It's jus a shop selling comic figurines. -.-''' V.nice ah..cute cute de. But I promised myself I wun ever buy such tgs le so din get. I donid 2 kp tt pl a secret 4 him..d whole bldg's so deserted, no1'll ever tink of gg dere in d 1st pl. We walked until Pearl Centre dere. Went 2 take a look at d famous onli RA theatre left in Sg. N u noe wat?? Dere's a church jus bs d cinema! Both of us were like -.-!!!! Wat a significant pl 2 haf a church man. Hahas..Saw many "interesting" posters tho'. I was d onli ger dere, feels weird, so we quickly left. Tt shopping centre is so empty oso. We came 2 a conclusion - Chinatown is nt a pl 4 young ppl 2 shop bs buying cds. Haas..after tt he walked mi back 2 mt bean bean den he went hm le. Felt kinda bad..but he say nm so.. =)) I'll report wat she made me do 2dae wen she sends mi d photos tmr. =/
I'm stil searchg 4 smtg, smtg tt I noe I wun ever c again, or mb it nv existed in d 1st pl..mb it was jus a dream I made up, gen ben jiu bu shi zhen de. It's possible, considering nw I cant differentiate btn reality n illusions nimore. Jus told tt sm1 wat I feel I shd do, wat I haf no choice but 2 do. I feel better nw. I noe he'll nv noe it but it jus mks my heart more peaceful. Still v.v.empty, but quiet le.
Ni hai hao ma? Hw've u been? Hope etg's gg on well 4 u..Still miss u..Stay hapi k?
1:24 AM
Thursday, November 24, 2005
On my way 2 work 2dae, I saw a v.old man lugging along a v.v.big Mac delivery backpack & a huge carrier, barely able 2 walk. He was gg 2 do delivery. My heart ached. I wanted 2 go help him carry but din dare 2. The bags looked heavier dan him. So ke lian. Sighs.
I went 2 work prepared 4 d cold 2dae. Wore a 3/4 jacket, anor normal jacket & a wollen furry 1. Not cold at all 2dae man. Yea! But...SIGHS..I dozed off during training. Slpt less dan 2 hrs last nite. My eyes cld barely open, my rite eye is swollen, I cldn't concentrate on a tg d trainer was sayin d whole day. Cldn't take it nimore, rushed dwn 2 d Starbucks dwnstairs durin break 2 get a coffee. Din help at all. Made me even slpier. Bleahz. Muz b d sugar. Damn.
Trainin was boring n tedious. Plus my mind wasn't wkg at all. Was lookin out of d window frm my training rm. Beautiful view ey..wondered hw it'd b flyin dwn frm dere..
Nice nice orh...can c d whole row of pubs at Boat Quay...
After work met Shian 4 din din. Went 2 d pl I went 4 lunch ytd. Dis time, I ordered 2 chilli. No more 4. But tastes bland. -.-''' Dey reali shd consider hafg 3 chilli rating. Grr. After eating, sudd felt like hafg a drink. Walked along d pubs at Boat Quay, decided 2 face my own demons n go in2 Eski Bar. Reali nice pl. Kukum, nxt time we go dere k? Nicer dan LV..u can freeze 2 death dere de!! Haas..We went in, at 1st I din feel cold. D ger gave me a jacket. I din wear it. But after awhile, I started 2 freeze so end up still had 2 wear it. Macho man said he wasn't cold at all so he din wear it thru'out. After we came out, he said he gt feng shi, leg numb til canot move le. Haas..Halfway thru, d pl blacked out 4 awhile. =.='''
Macho man & me..
Tryin 2 take a photo frm d top mirror..shi bai le.. =(
Our 2nd drink..I gaf Kukum anor chance..ERDINGER IS STILL NT NICE!!! *push*
Blackout..hahahas..
Menu by d candlelight..mmm...
Mr Tan is a total failure as a photographer...sighs..
After tt I felt like takin a cab hm cos 2 tired le. Oh oh! We saw Karen Mok outside Eski Bar!! My gdness! She's SKINNY!! But quite pretty ah. Tt genius brot me ard d whole Boat Quay in circles 2 wait 4 cab. Wif d time spent, I cld've reached hm alrd. On call oso no cab! Can u believe it? In my half awake, half aslp state, rec'd a msg frm a joker again. My gdness. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Reali feel so exasperated I can cry.
Final gt a cab, came hm. Sighs..headache nw. Sighs..y r tgs dis way..wat's d truth n wat's lies? Zhen jia zhi jian de cha bei, wo yi jing fen bu qing le. Ni1 gt any idea wat I m saying? Sighs...
Tmr still gotta wk up early, still got a whole file of hmwk 2 do, a whole stack of notes 2 read. Canot le. I reali gg 2 zonk out soon le. Tmr wake up earlier 2 do ba..Canot take it le..Reali feel like gg in2 a long long slp..don wana wake up nimore..reali tired.. =`(
11:38 PM
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
My thots r nw flyin all over d pl. Read sm1's blog, did smtg I thot I was incapable of doing again in my whole life. *heart shattered all over again* I reali dono wat 2 do.
1st day of work. I din noe wat 2 expect or wat 2 b prepared 4. I jus went. Amazing I cld still wake up on time after slacking 4 so long. Reached abt half hr early. My gdness. Tt office..I tell u..there's smtg seriously wrong wif d air conditioning. It's so F.R.E.A.K.I.N.G. cold!!! I was wearin a long sleeve shirt N jacket n my teeth were still chattering d whole day! All of us were shivering, even d trainer. My gdness. Nw I noe hw's d living environment of polar bears. I'm gg 2 bring my winter jacket 2 work tmr, in addition 2 a long sleeve shirt & anor jacket. I m not takin anymore chances. No no.
Lunch was on co., as a way of saying helo 2 d newcomers. We went 2 a ramen/thai food pl at dono where 2 eat. It was raining & my teeth hadn't stopped chattering. So d 1st tg tt caught my attention on d menu was the chilli ratings of d ramen. I thot "Alright! I need tt desperately!" So w/o tinking, I told d waitress I wanted 4 chilli. My colles looked at me n asked "r u sure??" I said "yes, no prob. I can take chilli n I m freaking cold nw." The noodles came, I took 1 big glup of d soup, I almst felt fire comin out of my nose imm. MY GDNESS!!! Y's d damn noodles so damn hot!! I cld barely finish 1/4 of d whole bowl & I had 2 try 2 hide d noodles so tt dey wun c hw wasteful I m. I tried..I reali tried..I thot by drinkg my cold Oolong Tea mite help. It made it worse. I tink my lips doubled its size. Mst painful lunch I've ever had. Reali. =(
Went bk 2 d Antarctica & con'ted d training. 2dae's quite relaxed cos considered orientation. Oh rite! Dey gave us notes. Asked us 2 put in2 a clear folder wif 40 pockets, meaning 80 pgs. I was tinkg "wa..so much 2 learn ah.." Nm, jus put lo. DEN d trainer came in wif a box. Started gifg out huge stacks of notes AGAIN! "Ok, put dese notes in ur ring files." 3-INCH RING FILES!! Nm. ANOR STACK OF NOTES!! Put in2 anor ring file!! I tink I've nv seen so much paper in my life in frnt of me. N I haf 2 study ALL of tt!! *faintz*
But so far so gd it seems.
After tt went town 2 collect sim card. Ewhere's in d Christmasy mood alrd. Dono if I can can apply leave during Xmas time. Don wana stay in sg. Sighs..
I miss u 2...reali reali do...
10:44 PM
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
AHHH!!!!!!!! I M GG 2 B FORCED IN2 THE ASYLUM!!! My gdness!! SHOO!!!!!! PLS GO AWAY!!!!
Rained the whole day, I was drenched d whole day. Seemed 2 b gg to n fro places since morn. Went Bt Merah 2 mt my aunt 4 lunch. B4 tt went TBP to get new furniture. But tt shop..I tell u..EVERY SINGLE ITEM I WAN IS OUT OF STOCK!!! Den as I was on my way 2 mt my aunt, d job agent called. Asked me 2 go dwn 4 final round of int at 1500. It was almst 1230 pm, I was at Tiong Bahru, I was dressed in shorts n small tee. ARGH! So rushed thru lunch, took a cab hm to change n rushed dwn to Raffles again. Grr..So near yet so far. All d way walkin in d rain. N it was freaking cold.
Heard "Wu Jin De Ai" by Sun Nan wen I passed by a shop. Gritted my teeth to nt let my eyes rain as well. *heartache*
Oh. I m starting work tmr le. So sudden. It's so weird. I don even noe if I m prepared 4 dis job, or prepared 2 even work at all. I was still tinking of gg on a long long hol to mb Europe or smtg. Sighs..suan le ba. Oh! Met an ex-collegue at d pl. THAT's called fate. Gd luck 2 me! =(
Nw I m back at hm, charge my 2 hopeless hps. Both totali no batt at d same time. Grr. Den later gg PS 2 watch d Emily Rose show wif 1 stick.
Wo zhen de kuai feng le..Y until dis v.sec he's still tellin mi all dis???? I dono wat 2 do nimore..I reali dono.. =`(((
6:59 PM
Monday, November 21, 2005
Bean: Ooo! My wisdom tooth comin out le! I'm getting wiser le. o(n_n)v Sy: -.-'''''''''''' Bean: Hmm..got gt smmore haven grow out..shows room for more wisdom. =)))) Sy: -.-'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''
Learnt 4 things 2dae.
1. DO NOT go shoppin wif bean if she tells u she's nt sure where d tg she wans 2 get is located. U will get brot round n round in circles & feel faint after tt. 2. DO NOT go shoppin wif bean cos she FORCES u 2 buy stuff. She made me pluck my eyebrow & buy foundation & literally jus splashed it on my face. =o 3. DO NOT eat wif bean if u r nt hungry cos she made me eat TWO large pkts of fries during dinner..she barely touched her food. *y do I haf a feeling no1's gg 2 believe pt 3? It's true! TRUST MEEE!!!* 4. If u ever c bean as a cosmetics salesger, pls heed my advice - RUN AWAY AS FAST AS U CAN, AS FAR AS U CAN!!!
Oh oh! Got funi pics..
Ms Ray putting on my foundation..
Dabbing nose nose...
Mei mei de Ray ray... =)
Bean, pls nv let him c dis ok? He'll literally slaughter me. =p
Turtle reunion - Cuter & Cutest =))
Sighs. Guess it's reali true. No matter hw hard time passes, it will still pass. Nite will come & go, day will also arrive & leave. I m tired of waking up feeling even more tired dan I was b4 I slp. I wan 2 b aware of hw I fell aslp wen I wk up. I m tired of eatg 4 d sake of eatg n nt cos I m hungry. Came hm, thot I was hungry. Peeled a piece of bread 2 eat, took 1 bite & almst puked. Den realised I m nt hungry. =/ I m tired of all d dreams I kp hafg. I long 4 dreamless slps, 4 a reason 2 smile again.
Rec'd msgs frm a joker 2dae. Ask mi qns I gaf up tryin 2 find ans to. Sighs. Hw u expect me 2 ans??? Pls jus leave me alone..I gt ntg 2 do wif all dis nimore..shoo shoo.
Christmas is coming. Weather is FREAKING cold. I reali wana jus leave dis pl 4 awhile.
Walked ard Bugis Village jus nw wif bean. Saw a bag. Bot it. Dono y. I noe I wun b d 1 using it, don even noe if ni1 will b using it. It's smtg tt I've been looking 4 4 v.long le..but nt 4 me. SIGHS..wat m I doing? ARGH!!
11:29 PM
Can't slp. All my thots r driving me CRAZY. Dono y dey r still affecting me, but dey r. Grr..dey shdn't b. But dey still r.
Met up wif a frd 4 a drink jus nw. He's anor 1 tt's 4ever driving me crazy. But at least in a better way ah..tt 1 I can totali don care...oops. =p
SIGHS!!! Gt an interview in d morn. Don even noe y I m gg 4 it. Shit, 4gt 2 go take photo. Later nd 2 go n dig 4 it..dono whether still got anot. Zzz..Nd 2 wake up at 9am. Hw d hell m I gg 2 do tt? I nd a drink!! My dad ask if I wana go overseas 4 awhile. Mb I shd ah..go Taiwan. Shd I? Shd I?
I nd 2 get a new hp. My hp nw is anor tg tt's driving mi nuts. I haf 2 charge it 3Xs e'day & it hangs like 50Xs a day. *puke blood*
dis...
or dis?
Tink I'll get d Sony Ericsson de ba..more memory. Kinda sick of Nokia. But super exp. $800+ w/o line. Feel like getting a laptop oso so I can use it in my room. Shd I? Shd I? Hp 1st la hor? Sighs..restarting a new life isn't cheap.
Bot d Jay Chou cd. Onli got like 2 nice songs? Sudd felt like listening 2 Shan Hu Hai so bot it. Last song we sang 2gtr.
Ur lips told me u were leaving (ur heart isn't dere nimore) The pain slowed dwn silently Tide crashing against the sea It's nt d sound of d waves It's d sound of my tears
U turned ard & left U cldn't bring urself to tell me The romance btn the seagull & fish is jus an accident Our romance? It's alwys dere but awaiting has turned in2 2 much hurt We weren't matured & honest enuff Forced smiles haf bc 2 painful Let love b buried in the coral reefs
It's a beautiful song. Sad, but beautiful. Y do I still kp reading d msgs over & over again? *heartache*
12:50 AM
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Jus made a call to IMH. Reserved a pl for myself. Gg 2 b admitted in dere soon. Vistors r most welcome. I noe I'll b damn bored dere.
Was lookin at my baby cuz jus nw. Hw I wish I was still a small kid. Jus gif them a swt & dey'll b so hapi. 2 them, happiness is jus smtg tt's nice 2 look at. I wan tt too. I wan 2 noe wat happiness is again..lost d meaning of it so long ago, tt I've even 4gtten abt d existence of such a tg alrd.
Went 4 bdae lunch 4 my gdma. She's so funi. I gave her a red pkt containing $12. She took it, opened it, returned me the $$, kept d red pkt & gave me $50. I was like -.-'''''''' She's real cute.
The seat bs me was empty. I'm still waiting 4 d day we r both waitg 4..4 tt missing piece of puzzle in our families' photos 2 b complete once again. Will tt day ever come? Or isit jus our wishful tinkg?
Rec'd a few msgs & was bz banging my head on d floor dis afternoon wen my aunties interrupted me n pulled mi 2 go shoppin wif them. I noe dey mean well but dragging along a walkin zombie while shopping isn't all tt fun. Saw a top..thot she mite like it..bot it..dono if I can ever pass it 2 her, dono if I'll ever c her again..but jus got it. Sighs..
I m reali gg crazy. CRAZY!!! Y's he lydet? AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JIU MING AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10:01 PM
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Head still spinning. When will dis feeling go away? When will I find out d reason y I m feeling dis way? All dese contradictory feelings r driving me CRAZY!! Sighs..I m relieved, yet sad. Sad 4 wat? I dono. Y r his words still affecting me? Y is he still saying dese words? Wat isit tt I still can't let go of? HELP!!!! =(
Sighs..went 2 watch a show tt I've long wanted 2 watch dis morning. Cldn't concentrate on d show at all. My head was spinning frm d 2 e33 tt 1 stick made me drink last nite (hahahas..) and my stomach was grinding like crazy. Dey played d chick chick thingy b4 d show started. Sighs..heartache. I m still waiting...waiting 4 wat?
Went 4 dinner wif Gm. Made him wait 4 almst an hr dwnstairs my hse. Sorry, I was doing smtg more impt. After dinner went 4 a walk in d park..den came hm. He forbade me 2 buy drinks. So I told him if he don smoke on Mon, I wun drink 4 1 nite. He agreed. So 2nite I haf 2 knock myself unconscious 2 zzz.
Y r his words still affecting me??? WHY?? Y is he still saying all dese tgs? Sighs..y m I still tinkg abt wat he says? Sighs..guess onli he & I noe d ans...
10:51 PM
Friday, November 18, 2005
My every exhalation seems to release half of d air in my lungs. I haf no strength to take in my next breath. My every step 4wd seems to put me back 10 steps. I haf no more strength to move on.
Spent d whole afternoon ytd staring at all d unpacked stuff lying on my floor. Dono hw 2 start. Den decided 2 gif up & go n slp. Woke up like 50Xs, den gave up tt idea oso. Went to mt R for din din. Reached his office, he was still typing a v.short passage thingy on Word. Said he'll b done in awhile den we can go 4 din din. There were like 4 paras left. I sat dere 4 abt 20 mins. He was almst finished wif 1 para. MY GDNESS!! Den B came in, looked at him & said,"I tink u finish typing dis we can go n eat le..I can't wait 4 u 2 finish. V.hungry." Hahas..so ke lian. Den I offered 2 help him type. He went washroom, came bk, I finished d whole brochure le. Amazing typing skills R has. *clap clap* *beany hush hush oki? don let him c dis..he'll kill me. =p*
Den we went 2 mum mum. R & B (hahas..) were staging some kinda xiang sheng thingy..in d middle of d food court, dey were doing gongfu actions. Reali cracked me up. Tink tt was d 1st smile I cld break in 2 days. Cldn't eat much & as usual, d 1 who's 4ever on diet helped me finish my food. =p
Den went bk 2 office & stone 4 d nxt few hrs, waiting 4 'em 2 clear work. D air con was so cold..it almst made me doze off. Rec'd some msgs..tore apart my heart all over again. Miss u guys too..haf & will alwys regard u as my family as well..
Went LV for a drink after tt. Can't rem hw much I drank. Onli rem waking up at ard 3+ am feeling so much like puking but yet cldn't. Oh! I stole R's ciggis..hehehes.. (n_n)v Tks so much 4 d company u guys.. =)
Woke up at 0830..my gdness. My head felt like it was literally splitting open! Had an interview at 0930. Popped 2 panadols & went out. I think panadol haf reverse effect on me. It made me feel worse. Managed 2 float my way 2 the pl..dono wat d guy was tokg abt & floated my way out again. Went 4 anor int in d afternoon. My gdness. I opened d door 2 a v.weird smell but I jus can't put my finger 2 it. Den I realised wat d pl smelt like. Rotten jackfruits + fever syrup. No no no..canot take it. Plus, d pl is kinda ulu. Nw I noe hw d gers in d past who had 2 bind their feet felt like. I walked almst d whole Shenton Way in new heels. It was pure torture.
Came hm, felt so dead. Looks like it's gg 2 rain again. Still tinking abt wat he said jus nw..tinking tinking tinking..y do I still bother 2 tink? Tt's anor million $ qn I'll nv haf an ans to..
5:47 PM
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Decided to leave my old blog, leave all the memories behind. I tried 2 del it but cldn't. 2 many memories, I jus cldn't press d del button.
Finali put dwn a v.v.heavy stone off my shoulder. The rain cldn't stop pouring the whole nite. Was heaven tryin 2 cover up my tears? E'tg is finali over. I feel a great sigh of relief, at d same time, I feel like a part of me had been removed frm me. Contradicting feelings. If dis is wat I've decided, y m I still feeling dis way? My head feels like a cannonball. I dono wat 2 feel or hw I m supp 2 go on.
I feel like I m tryin 2 start a whole new life all over again. New environment, new surroundings, new ppl. I feel so lost. When will I get bk my life again? Everywhere I turn, I c an image of the past. Hw m I supp 2 restart etg all over again?
Is dere a potion 2 erase mems? I'd gladly take 10 bottles of it.
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Tuesday, November 29, 2005
7:41 PM
