- My darling little boy <3
- Bret Hart!!!
- My frds who stuck by me thru thick n thin
- My wonderful family
- D no. '2'
- Burberry Candy Pink/Blue Label
- Radley
- Strawberries/cranberries & bitter chocolate
- Forming pictures n stories wif clouds
- Sunset
- Ice cold beer/Merlot
- Strawberry Margarita!
♥ w|sH|nG uPoN a sHoOt|nG sTaR
- For my loved 1s to be well n healthy
- To someday be Mrs L..n :)
- See Bret Hart!!!
- A cute little doggie of our own!
- Taiwan trippie!!
- Redang trippie
- Europe trippie
- Spend Xmas in Calagry
- A room filled wif tatty bears
- Love isn't finding a perfect person. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly -
I m a simple ger, living in d beautiful, dreamy world my dearest little boy has created 4 us. He has simplified my world of complications.
"Sm1 who holds me at my weakest, sees me at my ugliest, and a heart that still loves me at my worst."
I wan 2 b remembered as d ger who alwys mks u exasperated but canot stop laughing, finds her irritating yet enduring, d ger who brings a smile 2 ur face even wen she canot find her own.
Blessed wif wonderful frds, families n d sweetest love. To all dose who haf left footprints in my life, if dey haf've been blown away by d wind, I'd prob haf 4gtten abt u, n u'd prob nt b reading dis. But for dose who haf left a mark in my heart, I'll hold u dear in me forever. Tks 4 makg such a big diff in my life (:
~ 我的最大幸褔是发现了我爱你 ~ Current state of mind:
"If only smiles r reflections of wat d heart feels, love will b real. If only love is untainted without deceit, fairytales will come true. If only u believe, dere'll alwys b me & u."
♥ My Yester-years
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Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Hapi birthday Lk!!
Caught Munich 2dae. V.complicated show but v.meaningful. Set me thinking alot. Smtimes u tink u r doin smtg u strongly believe in..wen it's all over, n u tink back of etg u've lost bc of tt n wat ur life has bc, isit worth it? Do u still believe in it? Killings begets killings, hurt will lead back to hurt. Life is a vicious cycle. Karma exists. Some ppl jus don get a 2nd chance. N some ppl, no matter hw many chances u gif them, they jus nv learn. Munich is a v.heavy story but it depicts many issues abt life. Nice..
Went shopping for Bryan's present wif bean bean dis morning. We went Mos Burger n she made me eat 2 huge pkts of fries! I noe no1's gg 2 believe me but...SHE DID!!! Blehz. Haas~ Shopped ard 4 awhile..saw many tgs I so wanted 2 buy 4 a certain sm1 who I noe I shdn't..bean bean was dere 2 drag me away..ta hen xiong..bu xi huan.. =( I learnt 2dae, hw freakingly exp guys' underwear cost. My gdness..hahas~
- The fierce woman -
Den met my ex-colls 4 lunch..guess where we went..yep..Mos Burger again. Bean bean cldn't stop laughing at me :o But I jus got a drink ah..after tt big burger n mountain of fries she made me eat earlier, I cldn't eat nitg le. Hahas~ Went bk 2 my ex-office 4 awhile 2 visit my dear gz n da jie..
Hees..my star star is still there.. =)
After tt met Ter 4 d movie..den went Bugis 2 walk walk. Gz's bday comin soon le..shopped desperately 4 his pres cos I thot it was on d 6th..I rem wrongly..it's 16th. My da jie say I v.no heart.. =( Wo bu shi miyoo xin..shi zheng de yi shi wang ji..hw will I ever 4gt his bdae??Hahas~ Niways..got him a Domanchi belt tt I like alot..hope he likes it 2..~
After tt went 2 meet my otr colles 4 dinner at d Tian Tian steamboat pl..it was supp 2 b a bday treat frm 3 of us to Ter n Car BUT tt smart alec Ri went 2 split d bill 5 ways..qi si wo le..blehz. It was nice ah..but was so damn full frm dinner..omg~
Steamy boat~
After tt me n Di went back to Bugis 2 shop 4 their pressies..she got Car underwear..n I got Ter a pair of Renoma boxers..hahas~ I guess getting underwear 4 presents seems to b an IN tg nw..hahas~
Took a long long walk hm after tt..listening to my songs..alot of feelings overcame me again..guess I'll nv b able 2 get over dis part of my life..but 2dae will still pass n tmr will come..I guess smtgs, no matter hw hard it is, u jus haf 2 leave behind n move on..I still miss u so much..~
11:19 PM
Had a fun fun nite!
Met Em after work 2 go Newton hawker centre 4 a seafood feast! D hawker centre is currently under reno so dey moved to a temp pl bs Monk's Hill Sec sch..don like tt pl..I can't find all my fave food.. =( But well, nontheless, we ate til we cld barely move :p Sighs..wif him ard..I can jus stop dreamin abt my diet :o
Yummieeee~
Nowhere 2 go after tt so we headed dwn 2 Chijmes for a drink.
Dere's ntg in dis world like red wine...
Cheers!
When u've tried ur best n u noe u can't convince sm1 2 stop doin smtg tt's nt gd, be wif tt person wen she does it n mk sure she's ok..not jus kp sayin n sayin but u noe..ntg is done, even wen she needs u badly, u r nt even contactable bc u r afraid sm1 mite b upset. Well, den again, if u r d reason 4 her doin tt..wat's d pt of sayin so much? Words r jus empty vessels makin a hell lot of noise.
Left dere ard 10+, Em sent me to Wala-wala to meet Ter 4 anor drink. Man, I tell u..HoeGarden n red wine DO NOT go well 2gtr. My gosh. Almst died after tt. Haas~ No la..nt so kua zhang..but jus tastes weird =/ D live band dere was supp 2 b pretty gd..BUT last nite's was nt..blehz. Miss d 1 at Indochine.
Sat dere talkin 4 awhile..ntg beats hafg a drink on a Mon nite w/o worryin abt gettin up early 4 wk d nxt day cos we r both off todae!! Go watch movie later!! Hehehes~ =)) Den headed dwn to 6th ave for prata..yummy~ Sighs..5 kg jus last nite =(( N got steamboat din din 2nite. OMG~ Diet tmr...hahas..
Okie, gg out le..haf a nice day at work every1! Hehes~~
9:25 AM
Monday, February 27, 2006
Wat a way 2 start a week. 1st, I 4gt 2 bring my pass AGAIN. Den I run in2 a f*ing bitch who was seating at my seat. WTF! Bloody attitude prob. Almst wanted 2 spin her chair out of the door. Bloody hell.
Tink I fainted in my slp last nite. Dun reali noe wat happened..jus noe tt I woke up with a v.v.pained feeling in my chest. Wat did I say in tt conversation? Was dere a conversation in d 1st pl?I do recall hearing my hp ring..omg~ Sighs..
Argh..my head hurts. Sighs..a new batch of trainees r on the floor le. Time flies. Seems like ytd it was my 1st day at work. It's been 3 mths le. So many tgs haf happened. Cant even kp track. I tink d pace of my life is 2 quick 4 me. I wana go live in Canada, where etg seems so calm n peaceful..but den again..it jus seems 2 b..
Jus realised I said sm v.harsh words 2 sm1..did I reali mean wat I said? I dono..sighs. I don even rem wat I said.. =(
U mean more to me, Than words can ever say Just to hold ur hand And to know our love will stay Feels so right u r in my arms, my love Tonight
Oh you, U mean more to me Than any love I've ever known And I want to give u all my love Just u alone
Oh U r all my dreams come true There's so much joy in ur eyes And all the love u give U've finally made me realize U r all I need
U mean more to me Than words can ever say
Sudd fallin in love wif Lionel Richie's songs..Had alwys like his voice.. *dreamy*
0954. Calls kp comin in non-stop. Sians..zzz..I m so slpy.
1101. Feelin so slpy. Sighs..wat m I doin? Y m I sayin tgs tt is nt even me?? Can't ever imagine myself doin such tgs..my gdess..watever made me say such words?? Wat isit tt I reali wan? My mom's so swt. She noes I was feelin upset. I noe wat she wans me 2 do. But all she said was "Decide 4 urself. Do wat u wan" in a v.comforting tone. *touched*
1353. Back frm lunch awhile ago. Neck's feelin kinda stiff. Ri switched leave with me so nw I m off Tues n Wed..sians..smhw wld rather come 2 work..zzz..sighs..seem 2 b carryin a 1-ton load on my shoulder.
1449. So many troublesome cases. Argh! As if my head wasn't painful enuff. I badly need a massage. =((
1510. My carrot is so cute 2dae~ Oh ya, I've decided 2 name my xiao shuai ge carrot cos..easier 2 refer wen dere r many ppl ard..hahas..he's wearing contacts but dono y he look exceptionally smart 2dae. *yummy* =))
1539. 2 tired 2 type le. Shall end here 2dae. Fallin aslp. So damn tired.. -.-zzz~
Hapi bdae, Car!! =))
3:44 PM
Er: I m a simple boy Me: But I m a complicated ger Er: Den gif me a chance 2 teach u hw 2 b simple
It's been 7 yrs. Nt once has he nt been there 4 me whenever I nd sm1. Silently jus stayin by my side, lending me a shoulder, a listening ear. Nv once probing abt wat's bothering me, jus sitting dere, quietly. Met Eric 4 a drink dwnstairs my pl jus nw..talked abt work, abt stuff..world's reali small..we r neighbors n nw we r colleagues. I'm grateful 4 his presence n company 4 d past few yrs..whenever I m troubled, he'll b by my side in 5 mins. Ur frdship is priceless 2 me. I'll nv exchange it 4 nitg in d world..tt's 1 of d many reasons y I can't accept u..
Gg dwn 2 meet Em nw..tt kuku rushed all d way here 2 find me wen I told him I m gg dwnstairs 4 a walk, even wen I told him I was mtg my frd..he din believe me..my gdness..n he waited 4 2 hrs cos I din bring my hp out..gosh. *touched*
Tks Lex, I appreciate the sentiment.. =)
Overwhelmed with feelings 2nite..hope my drink can help me slp..
12:01 AM
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Finali went 2 rebond my hair. N color oso. Thot it mite make me feel better. But who noes..3.5 hrs n $320 later, I realized nothing will ever help ease the pain I feel inside..
Hello
I've been alone with you Inside my mind and in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times I sometimes see you Pass outside my door Hello! Is it me you're looking for? I can see it in your eyes I can see it in your smile You're all i've ever wanted And my arms are open wide Because you know just what to say And you know just what to do And I want to tell you so much I love you I long to see the sunlight in your hair And tell you time and time again How much I care Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow Hello! I've just got to let you know Because I wonder where you are And I wonder what you do Are you somewhere feeling lonely? Or is someone loving you? Tell me how to win your heart For i haven't got a clue But let me start by saying I love you I nd a drink..bye..
9:35 PM
I haf a dreadful feeling of deja vu. Wen u realize u cant even b truthful 2 urself, wat's nxt?Life doesn't seem 2 haf any meaning nimore. I wake up every morning, feeling lost. Putting up a mask 2 face d world, laughin loudly wen my heart is crying badly..wat m I doin? Tgs I nv thot I'd do, tgs I thot I'd kill ni1 who'd ever do it..I'm nw doin it all..wat m I living 4..? I no longer haf any idea.. L.O.S.T.
My gdness! I got a big shock wen I woke up dis morn. I slpt for 17+ hrs str8!! Can u believe tt???? I was reali so so so tired..
Went 4 lunch wif Ter after work ytd..had my nice nice prata of cos (n_n)v We got stalked by dis fortune teller guy who kpt wanting 2 tell our fortune -.-''' Went Cuppage to chk out the corporate promo Starhub was havin after tt. Met my poly frd, Ben there..world's jus so small..haas~ Ter wanted 2 get the NEC iMode hp..d iMode thingy is real cool but d design of the phone sux big time. Queue was crazily long so we left, undecided.
Went ard town to walk walk..wanted 2 catch a movie but d timings all seem so weird n no shows 2 watch.. =( Sooo..we went Coffee Club for a drink. Gave him a little bdae treat.. =)
My Earl Grey Vanilla & his Mocha Vanilla..yum yum..
Ter n Em alwys say dey don understand y I alwys take pictys of food n stuff wherever we go..it's 4 memories, my dear..all dese r hapi mems..I don seem 2 b able 2 rem hapi tgs, onli sad tgs..so I nd pics to help me rem. Try breakin my heart..tt I'll rem 4 d rest of my life. Sm1 sure has tt experience..go ask him.
After tt, we went bk 2 d Starhub pl again..we thot of jus changing no. without gettin d phone cos d corporate plans r damn cheap..but canot.. =( Walked dwn 2 PS 2 go hm le cos we were both dead tired. Tt was hw we celebrated his bdae. Well, I tried my best..was reali damn tired le..Tho' it wasn't much or mb it wasn't even who u wanted but hope u njoyed d company.. =) Haas~
Fell aslp immediately after I reached hm..n d nxt tg I noe, it was 1015 am d nxt day. Gosh. Tt jus shows hw tired I was.
Found dis pic in my hp. Almst 4gt abt it. Taken b4 we went MOS. She was buggin me 2 take pics so there goes..Hahahas~
"Take picture take picture!!!!" she was screeching..sooo...*click* lol
Haas~ Hungry hungry...wat 2 do 2dae? Movie? Hmm...
10:34 AM
Saturday, February 25, 2006
As the lights on the dance floor lowered As the crowd beside me dispersed I thot I saw u Walking 2wds me in a distance A blurred image in my drunkened sight As the lights came on The image disappeared I realised I was still all alone Standing in d middle of the dance floor A heart without a home I was still all alone...
HAPPI BDAY TER!! =))
Morning peeps! Yawns..back at work again. Had abt 3 hrs of slp..feelin so groggy nw. Wat did I do ytd? Lemme c..
Went 2 mt 1 stick after work..she was late, AS USUAL. So Ter accompanied me 4 awhile..we were walkin ard Clarke Quay station..came across dis nice little cafe pl in a v.ulu corner of North Bridge Rd..went in 4 a bite..food's nt bad..real cheap oso. 1 stick came 2 join us & stole my food..haas~ After tt Ter went hm & I went 2 watch 1 stick do her tachi class in a v.v.dusty n dirty balcony pl.. :p
D class lasted abt 15 hrs..yes, cos I was bored. Haas~ Den went 2 her pl 2 change n headed dwn to MOS to mt Ivan dey all. Finali got 2 go tt pl. Ter came along oso cos he oso wanted 2 chk out MOS. D pl was so packed I got high jus lookin at d crowd. Blehz. Real cool pl..but definitely nt a pl 2 chill. Lookin at ppl dance..damn funi. Haas~ Real proud of myself..drank onli 1 shot & 1 vodka cranberry.. (n_n)v U noe y? Cos 1 stick pulled me 2 go dancing & after tt we got lost frm e1 else. !@#$
It's amazing. I din noe dere were still ppl who use the pickup line "Hey, u look v.familiar! Can I noe u?" -.-''''''''''' Crap.
By d time Ter dropped me hm, it was abt 315 am le. I was so dead tired tt I fell aslp immediately wen I saw my bed bed. Had a craving for prata..dono y..
0837. I wana go hm n sleeeppppp~~ Hehehehehe!! My xiao shuai ge is here!! He's wearing burms..haas~ So cute! Wat a nice surprise! =))) *Cheap trill* Haas..I tink if I tell Ter abt him 1 more time he's gg 2 staple my mouth le..haas~
Damn cold..cos I m wearing a short skirt..yep, it's no more a surprise 2 c me wear skirt nimore. I m doin a makeover thingy 4 myself..cheer myself up abit. Sighs..~ No no, no more depression. *bites myself*I M HAPI!! =))) sighs..who m I kidding.. =((
Saw sm1 smokin again ytd..sighs~ Y can't ppl do things 4 themselves? Isit reali muz b bc of sm1 else tt u quit n wen tgs don work out..u use tt as a reason 2 do so again? Argh..watever. Can't b bothered. Pissed off.
1042. Bz morning..sudd so many calls..Ter was sayin tt it's cos Ri is nt here 2dae..he's usuali d crazy 1 enthusiastically takin calls. Haas~ Sighs..I m so tired..n hungry oso..I wana eat prata~ Hungry hungry..anor 2 hrs + to go..den haf 2 wait 4 Ter 2 knock off den can go mum mum.. -.-zzz
1255. 1 more call 2 call it a day. Been surfing ard ppl's blogs..interesting. Sets me tinkg...abt ppl, abt stuff..sighs, I guess I reali tink 2 much..1300! Log out. *Toot*
1306. Hurry up, Ter! I m starving!!! Better stop blogging le..2 many ppl ard le..see ya guys! Njoy ur weekend!
8:01 AM
Friday, February 24, 2006
I mite get sued for copyright but I reali cldn't resist. I jus cldn't. *ouch*
"What's up with MEN?! I'm sure there are more statistics to show that men are just crazy-assed bitches. When you have your pick of the hottest women around, what the HELL do you still want to screw someone ugly?!?!?!I cannot get it. I know, excitement of screwing someone new and all that, but can't you at least screw someone better looking? What is the POINT of screwing some ugly chick?"
5:02 PM
Yep, I'm back at work 2dae. It's 1107 nw. Freaking bz morning. Tink I becomin workaholic le. Gd oso la..takes my mind off stuff I shdnt b tinkg abt. Car called mi late last nite 2 swop shifts wif her. So I'm workin 6 days dis wk n 4 days nxt wk. Weird.
Went for din din with Ter after wk ytd. Took a walk 2 Clarke Quay 2 find sm pl nice 2 eat n drink.
Nice nice fountain at Clarke Quay
Ended up at dis pl called The Deck. Nice pl beside d river. Ordered potato skin and a sandwich each. D sandwich took 45 mins 2 come & we took 15 mins 2 eat it cos we were so damn hungry by den.. =/
The Deck
Evening view of Clarke Quay
As d nite goes..
& goes...
Deelicious sandwich~
Ter & me
Walked ard 2 find anor pl 4 a drink after tt..Chose dis pub wif a v.cute logo..Crazy Elephant. Tried 2 take a pic of d logo but 2 bright..canot take.. =(
- Clink -
~ Ter & me at Crazy Elephant ~
After tt, Ter walked me 2 Chinatown to meet Ivan dey all 4 ktv. I tink I shdn't listen 2 songs nimore. My gdness.
My nose is killing me. Cant stop sneezing. My gdness. Hao xin ku ah...~ 1120. Go toilet.
1139. I cant breathe. Hafg runny nose & haf 2 talk 2 cust at d same time. Jiu ming ah!!
1259. Lunchie!
1336. Back frm lunch..went Golden Cafe with Ter 2 eat hor fun. Salty like hell. Den he came bk office cos his lunchtime over le n I went Watsons to buy a big pkt of tissue. Finished 3 pkts dis morn le. My gdness. Nose fallin off..blehz. Jus missed d rain. Whew! Sighs..still a long long day 2 go..tmr still gotta work..Ter's bdae tmr..still haf no idea wat 2 get him..~ *Think think think* Hees~ My xiao shuai ge's in specs 2dae n black polo t..woohoo~ Cute cute! =) Self-amusement.
1347. Ntg much 2 write le. Shall end early 2dae. Still missing u...sighs...
8:39 AM
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Finali 1 mornin I can take train 2 wk n I'm in office without a hangover. =/
Went Sky dining at Altivo wif Em last nite. It was reali an experience of a lifetime. It was simply beautiful. D view, d ambience, d food, d red wine..it was simply beautiful. After dinner, we went to d otr side of Altivo 2 finish up our wine n eat soft shell crab..d music was amazing. Nice nice~
Nice nice waterfall at d entrance
Altivo in the day~
Star Virgo viewed frm d top
Day view frm cable car
Salmon steak~
Stirlon steak~
Dessert~
Nite view frm cable car
Soft shell crabbie
I had been drinkg 2 much lately so last nite I decided my "kidney" shd take a rest. So I drank v.little..tt ding dong drank like 3/4 of d bottle of red wine n ended up kinda drunk n started saying funi tgs. Haas~ Do ppl spk d truth or nonsense wen dey r drunk? I dono..
Sighs..I wasn't drunk last nite so I cldn't slp. C, it's nt tt I wana drink..bo bian..m I becoming alcoholic? =(
Was readin sm1's blog last nite. I dono her but I noe d person she was commenting abt. Y do I choose 2 believe her more dan I believe my frd? Cld it b bc I'm in her shoes myself? Or isit bc I reali feel tt way abt him oso? I tink it's more of d latter. Y can some ppl literally "zheng zhe yan jing shuo xia hua"? It's like d truth is in ur face but yet u kp insisting tt it's nt true. Finali, wen u noe dere's no way u can deny nimore, u gif all sorts of reasoning 2 try 2 justify ur actions, even wen no1 is int 2 listen nimore. U den try so hard 2 win tt person bk on ur side n repeat d tt all over again n dis time, u pull all her frds in2 it wif u n start spreading stories abt hw e1 dui bu qi ni. It's weird. I reali don understand hw sm ppl can b so psycho..n hw rightfully dey can justify their wrongs. Sighs..y r dere so many crazy ppl in dis world? I'm a gd person..y do I meet so many of such ppl?? Sighs..
Damnit. 4gt to bring my pass n toilet key 2dae. Argh!! I nd 2 peeee!!!
1034. 2dae onli gt me & Ter working. Sians. Ktv 2nite, off tmr! Yeah~
1231. Bk frm lunch. Lunched alone. Sudd had a craving 4 Delifrance. Last time I ate tt..sighs~ Niways, was reading bean bean's blog. 2 things - 1st, she made up a story on wat I ate on Mon wif her..WEI!! I ate MOST of d food oki?!?! U ate onli 1 mushroom! *bites* 2nd..my gdness! I burst out laughing in my office wen I read tt man..
em :what u 2 talk about? *with curious and want to know if we talked about him look* me: erms.. nothing much la … oh .. she said that she can eat foodcourt and simple things too.. no need to always eat restuarant.. em: ya.. she told me before.. but i want to bring her to some where nice.. me: ok .. ya because if a ger can't go thru thick and thin with you and eat bread when you really need to .. then she will not be worth it .. em: but she likes eating bread .. me: LOOOOOOOOOL !!!
Omg. I canot believe him. 1 of a kind. Reali. Lol. But ur advice doesn't seem 2 help ley..he spent d whole evening explaining y it's oki 2 spend so much. I almst pushed him dwn d cable car wen I found out hw much d necklace he got me 4 V-day was -.-'''
1247. 13 more mins 2 end of lunch. Spent d whole morn fixing up my new Friendster a/c. I wanted 2 kill bean bean 4 nt teachin me hw 2 del ppl frm Friendster UNTIL I went thru d hassle 2 set up a new 1. *box*
!!! My eyes came in2 contact wif my xiao shuai ge's eyes!! 4 tt 1 split sec, it seemed like d lights in my office was out. Onli gt electricity frm his eyes 2 mine. *bzzz* He's in contacts 2dae. I like him better in specs..hmm~
1300. Kai gong lo~
1423. He smiled at me!!!!! =)))) I love my seat! Strategic position cos he has 2 walk pass me all d time! Hees~
1606. My heart still hurts. Hai shi wang bu liao..sighs..zhen me ban??? Sighs..4gt it. Tink of happier tgs..beautiful sight..~ Lalala~~ Walky walky walk^^
1637. Shall end my entry le. 2 restless 2 type nimore..tatas~
8:02 AM
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Can't rem wen was d last time I came 2 work without a hangover. My gosh..tink I left my liver at Cloud 9 last nite. Met Alex 4 dinner at Chilli Thai again..kinda like d pl..dono y. Went Cloud 9 at Boat Quay 4 a drink after tt. It's his frd's pub..nw I noe where 2 go when I wan a drink by myself after work le. We almst had d whole pl 2 ourselves cos dere weren't many custs. Learnt 2 play a new dice game with them, sang songs & drank alot. At 1st he kept tellin mi nt 2 drink 2 much cos he's scared I'll turn alcoholic but later in2 d nite, he was drinking as much as me le..haas~ V.long nv c him le..smhw his presence alwys gifs me a sense of security..it feels like..I dono..I noe tt he'll b dere 4 me when I nd sm1 as he's alwys been. "Anytime u nd company, as long as I can mk it, I'll definitely come n meet u..tt's my promise 2 u." Hey Lex, tks 4 takin care of me last nite. Dono wat I'd haf done w/o u.. =)
Finali gotten closure last nite. Time 4 alot of changes. The pain is still dere but I guess wen it's time 2 let go, u jus haf 2. I can't find any reasons 2 hold on nimore. Joe, leaving u is d hardest tg I ever had 2 do..but u've forced me 2 do tt time n time again. I dono wat 2 say 2 u nimore..tks 4 d mems..I'll nv 4gt etg u've done 4 me..u take care..Seasons may change, winter to spring..but I'll love u..until the end of time.. I'm feelin shiverish..it's nt cold but dono y I kp shivering. I tink I haf alcohol flowing in my veins. Sighs..Ter's off 2dae. Bored bored bored. No1 2 email. Sighs..
Cant wait 4 Fri..I nd a gd slp..nd 1 day wen I can wake up without a spinning headache. Feel like takin mc but tink dis mth take 2 many le. Dis feelin is terrible. Feel like puking. Blehz.
1337. Cld barely eat lunch. Drank abit of fish soup..feel like throwing up the fish nw. I dono if my pain is self-inflicted or dono wat-inflicted. Sighs..Ter said it'll go away soon..WHEN will it go away?? Kinda miss him. No1 2 crap wif me 2dae =/
1500. Sighs..can stop work early 2dae..gt some kinda briefng thingy. Anor 2 hrs 15 mins to go. Bean bean so fierce. She scold me. Bu xi huan..*pouts* She ask me don drink 2 much..later kidney canot take it -.-'''. Since wen does alcohol got nitg 2 do wif kidney??? Bean bean breathes wif her intestines (n_n)v
Cracking my brain to tink of a new password. Bloody comp prompting mi every 15 mins 2 change my pw. Irritating. Can't tink of any otr pw tt I can rem ley..shit. Sighs..y muz we change things? Y can't tgs stay d same? Dis is an ironic metaphor.
1540. Oh gosh..y does time pass so slow today?? Jus had a thot. No matter hw impt u tink sm1 is 2 u, smhw as time goes by n contact lessens, d feeling oso goes away. Does tt mean tt person was nv impt 2 u in d 1st pl? Was lookin at sm1 whose presence I thot was vital 2 me at work. Sudd, without even realizing it, he no longer is. Isit tt my feelings haf changed or isit bc they were nv dere? Hw I wish I can feel dis way abt every1. SIGHS..
I nd a makeover. Hmm..will go rebond my hair soon..hair's in a mess. Haf started wearing skirts oso..shocked quite a few ppl..hahas~ Wat else shd I do? Hmm..ni1 noes where 2 get a new brain? Tink my current 1 is 2 full of tgs tt shdn't b dere nimore.
1555. *Tick tock tick tock* Shall pay d washroom a visit.
1626. Sudd a sentence came in2 my mind.."Don name ur son Humphrey.."Sighs.. *heartache* Wun ever get married, much less 2 say haf any kids. Will nv trust ni1 wif my feelings again.
1756. Back frm briefing. Guy bs me was slpg away. Can imagine hw interesting the talk was. Haas~ Oki..gg off le! Tatas~ SIGHS...
8:40 AM
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Don gif me any promises. I'm tired of hearing them. Don say u'll nv hurt me like he did. I wun believe. Don tink tt I'm all u ever wan. I'm nt as gd as u feel. Don love me. I'm nt worth it.
Haf no idea hw I gt hm last nite. All I noe is my head's still spinning rite nw. Dragged myself outa bed dis morn, felt like puking. Woke up ard 0705, rushed all d way 2 work..2 mins late. Bleh. Nt as if I care tho'..1st time I'm late. Ate 1 panadol..seems 2 feel worse. Stomach's still churning...
Met bean bean 4 din din last nite (hey..bean bean..din din..sounds cute..). Finali went 2 eat d tofu thingy..after TWO YEARS! Hahas~ Went 2 wat's tt pl called..Mama Africa? 2 drink Erdinger after tt..Bean bean was tryin 2 make d elephant on d signboard drop on my head. =/
Funi face bean bean..
Dwn 2 LV after tt 4 anor drink wif d guys..I started off jus wantg a drink jus 2 mk myself slp at nite..smhw ended up kinda drunk. 2 many things on my mind. I can't get over it. It's killing me. Heard alot of songs tt reminded me of d past..I rem my promise nt 2 drink..but nw, it doesn't mean nitg nimore..d word "promise" is no longer in my dictionary.
Hey bean bean..din mean 2 break dwn lydet..soz if I scared ya.. =p Btw, I found dis big heart-shaped candle thingy in my bag dis morn..u haf any idea hw it got there? Did I buy tt tg?? Y wld I buy it niwae? I reali can't rem..
Bean bean & me..
I reali dono wat I'm doin nimore. Feels like a v.large rock has been lifted off my shoulder yet it seems a v.big part of me is gone. Can't ever go bk 2 wat I was b4 nimore. I dono hw long it'll take me 2 heal..I dono wen my heart will stop feelin so painful. I dono nitg nimore..
Funi cust called 2 report loss of her UOB atm card. I thot I was d 1 hafg a headache. My gdness -.-'''
Bean bean, tks 4 being dere 4 me. Don worry, I'm ok..I jus nd some time 2 get myself back. I dono hw long it's gg 2 take but I'll get dere smhw. I noe u guys care alot 4 me..reali grateful 4 tt.. =)
1429. Time's crawling by. I don feel any better frm dis morn. Still feel like puking. Cldn't eat much for lunch. Food seems tasteless 2 me nw. Seem 2 haf lost interest in doing nitg. Tried 2 surf ard 4 some wrestling stuff..almst wanted 2 kill myself. Guess I've finali given up on wrestling. It's 2 painful. 2 2 painful.
Dere r so many thots in my mind nw. I feel like I'm drowning in my own flood of emotions. Can I jus sink in? 2 tired 2 tread water le. Actuali even as I m typing dis, I haf no idea wat I m typing. I m 2 bored in office nw tt's y I m jus typin, typing, typing..
Rec'd v.swt msgs frm ppl..tks y'all. U guys noe who u r..I'll b oki de..etg takes time..tks 4 being so nice..~
Hees~ My xiao shuai ge is jus bs me nw..cheap trill la..nt tt I m interested..jus keeping my mind off my choking feeling 4 like 5 secs. 2.5 hrs 2 go..sighs..
1612. Pls kill me. I had a cust called Mochi. Kill me. Pls jus kill me. My gdness. HELP!!!! Shit. I'm swearing off dogs. Each time I c 1, I'll kick it. D table I'm sitting at is full of pooh bears. Suddenly I haf murderous thots.
1718. Can't wait 2 get out of dis pl. Stifling. Meetg Alex 4 dinner. Funi guy. Supp 2 mt him at 1815. He was here at 1650. Tink he's 2 eager 2 c me. Haas~
1740. Bean bean no nice. Bluff me. Said I paid $50 4 tt candle. 4 a moment dere I reali thot I had gone crazy. *box* & wassup wif my cups of carrots? It's nice ma..nxt time I gif u 1 cup k? =))
1750. Y r all my memories so far away yet etg seemed 2 haf happened jus ytd. Xin hao tong. Feel so lost yet kinda free. Can't take bk my words, can't turn back time. Joe, u r wrong. True love does exist. U had d truest love ever possible by ur side 4 more dan a yr but u chose 2 break it time n time again. Love gets tired. Human feelings r nt smtg 2 b toyed wif..I still believe every word u said, I believe u reali love me. But u've made me lose sight of d love we once had. Mayb watever we had was reali jus a dream, a fairytale tt we both imagined. No matter wat, dis sentence will forever b in my heart..Seasons may change, winter to spring..but I'll love u, until the end of time..
8:11 AM
Monday, February 20, 2006
The pain is eating her alive. It's a feeling worse dan death. She feels so lost, so exasperated. Tears threatening so hard 2 gush out of her eyes yet there seems to b an invisble film holdin them back. She had tried so hard 2 hold on n she had tried so hard 2 let go. After mths of struggle, tears n heartache, ntg has changed. She's still at d v.same spot after circling round n round. She's desperately lookg 4 a release, sm1 2 cut tt string finali. She opens her mouth 2 scream but no voice comes out. She tries 2 stab herself but no blood flows out. The exasperation is killing her..slowly but surely. She's choking on her own feelings..she's a prisoner of her own heart. All she wans is 2 get her life back..but nw, she no longer noes who she is or wat is she living 4..she has lost herself..
Dere r so many thots in my mind..I'm drowning in them. Reali feel like jus getting knocked dwn by a car or smtg. Save me frm dis flesh-eating disease-like torture. My gosh..sm1 pls pls pls help me! Sighs..
Cant rem wen was d last time I smiled frm my heart. Cant rem wen was d last time I was truely hapi. Cant rem wen was d last time my mind isn't troubled. Cnt rem wen was d last time I understood wat love is. I feel like I m in d middle of the sea, far away frm shore..I can't c nitg but d sky n water. Etg seems so empty, so far away. I dono which direction 2 swim 2wds, I dono wat 2 do. I jus kp treading water..until I haf no more energy. I feel like jus letting myself sink in2 d water. I no longer noe where's d shore n cant b bothered 2 find out nimore. All I wan is a release frm d mental n physical torture tt I m in nw. Wo zhen de hao tong ku...
Y does it seem tt etg I do is wrong? E'choice I mk doesnt go thru? Hw long more does dis haf 2 go on? The exasperation is reali eating me alive. It's not my choice. It's reali nt my choice...
0948. No mood 2 work. Feel like a zombie. I nd a drink. Dono wat else 2 do bs tt..Sighs..I thot I had etg figured out. Y do tgs alwys go bk 2 d way dey were? Like a mirorr, once smashed, will nv b pieced bk in2 a perfect mirror again. Wat's d pt of tryin so hard?
Sighs..let's tok abt happier tgs..nt tt dere's nitg reali hapi in my life rite nw but...
Oki..let's c wat I did ytd. Met Em 2 go 2 tt tea house pl at Tanjong Pagar 4 lunch. Tt pl's quite cute..alot of dose funi chinese tea stuff. I usuali drink chinese tea out of a brown can labelled Oolong Tea. Simple. Tt pl has 1001 steps of drinkg a small small cup of tea. Hahas~ But quite nice ah..d lotus leaf rice is nice nice oso. I found d tea pot so cute..bot 1. Freaking tiny thing costs $28!!! My gdness. Shall stick 2 my Oolong tea. Can buy 28 cans wif tt amt.
Went Marina 2 watch Walk The Line. Starting part of d show's real boring but twds d middle part, it got interesting. Sighs..d theme of d story seemed 2 b rubbing salt in2 my open wounds. Dono y dese few days kp watching shows abt unfaithfulness. My gosh. Tok abt irony man. Sighs..is dere a definite rite or wrong on dis topic? Well, at least d guy in d show was clear on who he loves n wans 2 b wif n doesn't cause more pain 2 ni1..sighs. Love..sighs..wat crap. Argh!
After tt went Coffee Club 4 a drink & headed hm. Watever happened 4 d rest of d nite..sighs..
I tink I nd 2 watch a comedy. My life's depressing. 1134. Half hr more 2 lunch. Sighs..don feel like working at all. My shoes seem 2 b filled with lead. Every step seems 2 weigh a ton. Argh!!
1151. I nd a break. Go toilet.
1257. Bk frm lunch. Went Caltex Hse 2 walk ard..no appetite 2 eat nitg. Was tinkg wat 2 get Ter 4 his bdae. Thot of gettin him anti-depressant pills. Can get sm 4 myself at d same time oso. Yi ju liang de. Sighs..
1347. I've finali done it. My heart is so painful nw. Ntg matters 2 me nimore. Ntg at all. I'm finali free but I've lost myself forever..
8:13 AM
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Love is:
- wen she's throwing up, even on u, after drinkg 2 much n all u care abt is tt she's ok - wen she's upset, u'll put aside etg n rush 2 her side n NOT jus say "tink u r unhapi rite nw, we tok tmr wen u r feelin better" n nt reply ur msgs nimore bc u r wif sm1 else - wen u wan 2 buy etg she mentions is cute 4 her - wen u'll buy a jacket 4 her wen it's cold 4 awhile even if she alrd has many at hm - wen u'll protect her frm any hurt n NOT b d cause of her pain over n over again
"Rite frm d start, all I ever wanted was memories..."
Met Em at City Hall last evening 4 din din. We went 2 dis dono call wat Waka-smtg Jap restaurant 2 eat. Fd's reali gd but super exp. Even their cultery is so quaint.
I like the plate!
The leaf doesn't get burnt at all! Amazing..
Went Glutton's Bay 2 mt 1 stick n Peng 4 awhile after din. She FORCED me 2 eat a WHOLE plate of Hokkein mee. Sighs..d abuse I get frm her..tsk tsk. Hahas..after tt went bk Marina 2 watch The Pink Panther. Ytd was a movie marathon day 4 me..haas! Show's reali reali funi. I cldn't stop laughing thru'out d whole show. Shd go watch. =)
Walked dwn 2 Chijmes 4 a drink after tt. Pl's beautiful. Had alwys wanted 2 go dere..walked ard abit, so many pubs dere..spoiled 4 choice. Settled dwn at Liberte. It's a nice pub thingy..we sat outdoors 2 njoy d scenery..
Abit dark ah..but dis is d front door..
Taken frm where I was sitting..
Nite view taken frm where I was sitting..put ur cursor on d pic..can c clearer..
Nice nice candlelight thingy..
- Em & me -
I liked d Erdinger glass..d tall tall 1..asked d waitress if where 2 get 1..she said if we gaf a gd tip, d manager will let us haf 1. Tt ding dong gaf a $20 tip 4 tt 1 glass. I tink it costs less dan $5. -.-'''''''
Went 2 take a trishaw ride after tt. I had alwys wanted 2 do tt.. =) He brot us 1 round ard City Hall, Esplande etc..abt half hr ride..nite wind blowing in my hair..tryin 2 blow away all my thots. But din work. Nonetheless, it was reali nice. Wana do it again.. =)
Taken frm d trishaw
Took a cab 2 below Benjamin Shears bridge 4 a walk after tt. Yes. We took a cab frm City Hall to Esplande cos he din noe d way 2 walk -.-'''. D driver was laughing at us cos it was jus up ahead onli. Haas..went hm, dead tired after tt..zzz..
Tt was my v.interesting nite. Tried 2 4gt abt alot of unhapi tgs but smhw..sighs. Finali made up my mind 2 stop torturing myself dis way. If I con't drinking dis way I tink I'll nd a new liver v.soon..hahas..but ok la, I've cut dwn alot alot alrd..acheivement. Yea~
Oh oh! I'm in love wif a new doggie!
Blacky - isn't he soooo cute?? Small small 1..I haf no idea y wld 1 stick name him Yogi.. *scratch head*
I love u..u love me..we r hapi family... =)))
Isn't dis a long post? Haas..but got pictys ma..so shdn't b 2 boring. Still feelin kinda down nw. It's a mixture of exasperation wu nai n guilt, happiness n lonliness..sighs..I don haf 2 feel dis way..I've reali gotta stop torturing myself dis way. Decisions haf 2 b made, hwever hard it may b..if u can't decide, let me b d 1 2 decide 4 u n lessen e1's misery..
Mo Cushle - My darling, my blood.
11:24 AM
Watched Million-Dollar Baby ytd. Smhw, d show stayed in my mind d whole day. D story is abt a female boxer who tried so hard 2 get dis renowned trainer 2 train her but he refused cos he doesn't train females. In d end, her persistence pulled thru n he agreed 2 train her. She bc undefeatable n he did etg he cld 2 mk her d best she cld b. She was so grateful 2 him tt even wen anor manager offered her a v.gd deal, all she said was "I ain't nv leaving Frankie" n walked off. He brot her 2 heavyweight status..in her 1st title match, she got fatally injured. Ref had called 4 a break after she won tt round n she turned her back against her opponent 2 go bk 2 her corner. Tt crazy bitch bu fu qi & whacked her on d back. She fell, neck 1st in2 a wooden chair. Her spinal cord n throat shattered. She had 2 b bed-bound 4 d rest of her life. Nt 4 1 sec did Frankie gif up on her. He called e'hospital in America 2 c if any docs cld fix her. Wen he finali realise no1 can, he jus stayed by her side all d time 2 tc of her. He nv ever found her 2 b burden. All he wanted 2 do was 2 kp her by his side. Wen she lost her leg, she gt so depressed tt she begged Frankie 2 let her die. He refused n she tried 2 kill herself. In d end, seeing hw tong ku she was, he relented. He stopped her respiratory pipes n gaf her a shot 2 let her go in peace. Her suffering is gone. But he'll live in eternal misery. He cldn't b found after tt, no1 knew where Frankie went. He chose 2 live in misery 4 d rest of his life, in exchange 4 her release. All bc he loved her so much. Sighs...
Watched anor show after tt..She's The One. Made me almst wana throw d chair at the screen. Bloody shit. Can't believe sm1 can actuali justify cheating on his wife so rightfully. Men. Bah! 2 close 4 comfort. Stupid show! If nt cos of Jennifer Aniston, I wldn't even waste my time watchin tt damn show. Sighs..y can't ppl b faithful in rships? Y do ppl cheat? Y can't ppl b thankful 4 wat dey alrd haf? Y r ppl so selfish n greedy? Sighs..feelings can't b controlled. So tt justifies cheating & hurting sm1 who loves u so much? Does it???
2:35 AM
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Di asked us out 4 dinner n ended up, she flew us aeroplane. !@#$ So ended up, mi n Ter went 4 dinner ourselves. We logged out immed at 1800 & left office. All of us were counting dwn since 1730. Haas~
It was still v.early so we went 4 a walk at Fullerton hotel dere, lookg 4 a nice pl 2 haf dinner n drinks. Settled dwn at dis restaurant pub pl called Babyface. Sat by the river, tryin 2 let d cool breeze blow away my troubles. Din work.
Babyface Chillout Bar
We weren't v.hungry so ordered a pizza n mushrooms 2 share. The food's not bad...
Mushrooms & Pizza
My cup of carrots =)
After dinner, we sat dere talking n drinking. Grew kinda hungry again after awhile n we ordered wedges n anor drink each. My gdness..d wedges were damn alot.
Nite falls - Candlelight, Heinken & wedges..
I've alwys been wondering if a guy n a ger can reali jus haf a v.close platonic r/ship..jus purely v.v.gd frds who can tok abt nitg 2 each otr. I used 2 believe tt but situations alwys prove my believe otherwise. Smhw in Ter, I seem 2 haf found my believe again. I wun change tt 4 nitg in d world. =)
=)
He acc me 2 PS 2 mt 1 stick after tt. Went 2 watch Brokeback Mountain. I learnt a lesson 2nite. Do not go watch a movie wen u r half drunk. I tink I slpt 4 abt half hr in2 d show. I was so freakingly tired & it was so slow!! No wonder d show lasted more dan 2 hrs. It's a v.painful love story btn 2 guys which ended tragically. Sighs..
I wana swear off love. Tried 2 do tt so many times le but smhw it jus doesn't wana leave me alone. Sighs..I tink I'll onli haf d courage 2 saay wat I wana say wen I m nt fully sober. Some things..it's reali time 2 let go..b4 my heart dies of depression..which is v.v.soon if dis kps up..
1:30 AM
Friday, February 17, 2006
The bike was dashing at full speed. The rider did not notice the hump up ahead and when the bike ran pass the hump, the rider flew upwards in2 the air and fell frm a v.v.great distance. As she was falling, she felt so peaceful, as if she was flying..the fall lasted so long..it was as if she'd nv land. When she finali did, there wasn't any pain. In fact, she felt so peaceful.Jus at tt v.moment, I woke up, startled. Tt dream repeated itself 3x last nite n each time, d distance I fell became greater. I m so tired nw..my gdness.
Went to look up on the meaning of falling dreams. As a symbol, falling highlights a loss of emotional equilibrium or self-control. You may fear "letting go" in real life. Anxiety usually accompanies this dream. It may represent your insecurity, a lack of self-confidence, a fear of failure or an inability to cope with a situation. The dream may be urging you to stop resisting an impulse from the unconscious. The dream may be a warning.My gdness..how freakingly true it is.
Em came 2 acc me 4 a walk in d park opp my hse last nite wif a drink in my hand. Lookin at d serene lake, I sudd felt so calm. The nite breeze was chilly but I wasn't cold nimore.
I dono y I m feelin dis way. I m jus v.angry at myself 4 letting myself go thru dis stupid phase time n time again. It's as if I c dis brick wall n I jus can't stop crashing myself against it. I reali dono wtf m I doin. Sighs..
"U noe v.well u don haf 2 go thru dis..dere r otrs who r willing to do nitg 4 u.." "Stop feeling dis way..u noe dere r otr choices available..some even so near u.."
I've been hearing so much of dese stuff 4 d past few mths. I nd a new brain AND a new heart. Argh!! I've gotta stop looping in circles n get my life back. Sighs..if tt's ever possible.
Feel so stifled nw. Sighs..24 mins to lunch. Woke up wif a terrible headache. Muz've been falling 2 much in my dreams. Canot take any more mcs for d nxt 2 mths le..gotta start planning my leave oso..bloody leave system here sux big time. Hafta apply like 2 mths in advance. I miss my prev wkpl..gif half hr notice oso can de..bleh.
8 mins 2 lunch. Damn hungry but no appetite. My life seems perfect, yet it seems screwed up. Contradicting thots. My mind's gg 2 explode.
1257. Back frm lunch. Bloody shit. Gt accused 4 smtg I nv did. Y do I alwys haf 2 get involved in all dis crap? Y do all dese f*ing bitches keep f*ing wan 2 bother me?! Get ur bloody claws away frm me!! Argh!!! Qi si wo le. I m a normal, sane person. Y do crazy ppl kp btohering me?? My gdness! All dose crazy bitches wif ntg better 2 do, pls pls pls don tink so highly of urselves n ur bfs. All of u r nt worth my time n energy at all!
I m reali gg 2 sue ppl 4 harassement alrd. I reali m. Shit.
10:44 AM
Thursday, February 16, 2006
I've discovered a new feeling. A feeling I've nv felt b4 in my life. It's called lonliness. Given wat I can haf & wat I alrd haf in my life rite nw, I don haf 2 feel dis way. But as Ri alwys so bitterly put it, it's d choices I make. I don deserve dis. I've alwys been faithful in love, true to every1 ard me. Y muz I go thru all dis crap? I can haf etg..in fact, I do haf etg. But it's jus tt 1 thing tt's tearing me apart..yet I choose nt 2 let go. I choose 2 love n nt b loved. Wen or hw will I noe wat's d rite choice n wat's d wrong 1? Is dis reali my choice?
Some ppl r jus so shameless. I reali don c hw can ni1 fatter n uglier dan otr ppl haf d cheek 2 call sm1 else names? Y r dere such ridiculous ppl? Well, mb beauty lies in d eyes of d beholder, n mb love reali is blind. I nd sm1 who'll protect me frm hurt n nt sm1 who's d reason 4 me 2 b called names by crazy ppl, which in d 1st pl, I haf no reason 2 b subjected 2. I'm oso human. I oso haf feelings. But apparently, it jus doesn't matter 2 ni1..dere's alwys tt sm1 else who's more impt..
I'm so tired. Is dis reali hw lonliness feels? I can't take dis nimore. I've been tormenting myself d whole day..it's long enuff. I nd a break. A break frm etg..I'm gg for a walk...mb d nite air will cool my mind a little...
9:46 PM
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Haf u ever met a person whose onli fault is tt he's 2 nice? I haf..
Went My Secret Garden 4 dinner wif Em last nite..he came 2 my office 2 wait 4 me..I told him I'll still nd some time 2 clear my wk, he insisted on waitg in d cab..when I saw him..den I knew y..he had a bouquet of lilies waitg 4 me despite me telling him nt 2 get since mths ago.
My Secret Garden is a reali beautiful & cosy pl. The manager put us at dis half outdoor, half indoor kinda pl..Nice nice. Food's gd but 4 the portions they serve, it's too over-priced.
Lilies & red wine..
Mei mei hor?
Goose liver..tastes funi..
My lamb rack..deeelicious..
His salmon dono wat...
As if all tt was nt enuff..he even got me a beautiful necklace.. *touched* The smile on his face wen he saw my surprised look was priceless. He seemed happier dan me. After tt went to d new Eski Bar at Holland V. Sat dere chatting 4 awhile den v.tired le..went hm after tt..
Woke up wif a terrible headache. Tink it's d goose liver. My stomach's still churning..bleh. Was seriously considering to take mc at 9+..luckily I din..got a nice nice surprise! =) Ai si ni le!! =)))) Sudd I feel so much better le.. :p
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Tuesday, February 28, 2006
11:19 PM
