- My darling little boy <3
- Bret Hart!!!
- My frds who stuck by me thru thick n thin
- My wonderful family
- D no. '2'
- Burberry Candy Pink/Blue Label
- Radley
- Strawberries/cranberries & bitter chocolate
- Forming pictures n stories wif clouds
- Sunset
- Ice cold beer/Merlot
- Strawberry Margarita!
♥ w|sH|nG uPoN a sHoOt|nG sTaR
- For my loved 1s to be well n healthy
- To someday be Mrs L..n :)
- See Bret Hart!!!
- A cute little doggie of our own!
- Taiwan trippie!!
- Redang trippie
- Europe trippie
- Spend Xmas in Calagry
- A room filled wif tatty bears
- Love isn't finding a perfect person. It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly -
I m a simple ger, living in d beautiful, dreamy world my dearest little boy has created 4 us. He has simplified my world of complications.
"Sm1 who holds me at my weakest, sees me at my ugliest, and a heart that still loves me at my worst."
I wan 2 b remembered as d ger who alwys mks u exasperated but canot stop laughing, finds her irritating yet enduring, d ger who brings a smile 2 ur face even wen she canot find her own.
Blessed wif wonderful frds, families n d sweetest love. To all dose who haf left footprints in my life, if dey haf've been blown away by d wind, I'd prob haf 4gtten abt u, n u'd prob nt b reading dis. But for dose who haf left a mark in my heart, I'll hold u dear in me forever. Tks 4 makg such a big diff in my life (:
~ 我的最大幸褔是发现了我爱你 ~ Current state of mind:
"If only smiles r reflections of wat d heart feels, love will b real. If only love is untainted without deceit, fairytales will come true. If only u believe, dere'll alwys b me & u."
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Thursday, November 30, 2006
I'm freaking tired nw but wana pen a few words b4 I concuss in2 lala land.
Little boy came 2 pick me after work and we decide 2 try 2 mk our way 2 East Coast. We managed 2 reach dere at our 1st try! Amazing rite?! Considering hw good (1 stick can vouch 4 tt) I m wif directions..n he din reali noe d way :P Mac 4 supper den a long long walk along d beach..
Sorry dar, 4 tt silly thot. It's all behind nw..I'll alwys remember my promise 2 u 2nite (:
Time 2 slp slp le.. -.-zzz
3:28 AM
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
爱是你眼里的一首情歌
Cldnt find any words tt I haven alrd used 2 describe hw I feel. Guess d above sentence sums it up. All I c is d love in ur eyes (:
It's been a beautiful mth n I feel like I'm living in a fairytale. Frm all d little tgs u did, shows hw impt I m in ur heart..n for all I've done, I hope u realize it's d same for me.
Warming mi eday, sheltering me frm d rain, laughing at my silliness, finding joy in my childishness, pampering me, holding me so tt I can even fall aslp standing in d train w/o worring abt falling, holding my hands now..til forever..
No matter hw complicated d world forces me 2 b, I find solance in ur embrace. N tt's where I'm gona stay 4 d rest of my life (:
爱是你眼里的一首情歌 轻洋着飘逸旋律 让我不知不觉地陶醉在 你缠绕的深情
爱是你眼里的一首情歌 轻拨动我的心弦 让我不由自主地深爱着你
2:15 AM
Yawns..had a v.v.frustrating day at work. 1st of all my little boy's on leave 4 a whole wk, leavin mi by myself in office ): 2ndly, my stupid access was deleted last wk due 2 some screw-up in my extension so was still folding n faxing letters d whole day. Ard 4pm, I had absolutely ntg 2 do le so I read all d brochures we had frm d 1st pg 2 d last, n den back again. Sounds freakingly fun, doesn't it? ~.-
Nihoos, of cos was lookg 4wd 2 ending wk early 2dae. Little boy came 2 pick me at 6pm n we went Marina Sq 4 din. I wanted 2 try d Carl's Jr burger but nv had d chance 2 cos d size of d burgers look so intimidating. But had darling 2 share wif mi so can try :) Nice nice oh! But I can nv finish 1 by myself.
Walked ard abit den went 2 爱情海 4 a drink n listen 2 ppl sing (hey! D sentence rhymes!)
Oh oh! Ya, I haf..or rather, we haf a new hobby. It's called walking :P Sun nite, after he knocked off..we walked frm office all d way 2 Tiong Bahru. Tiring, but was fun. D walk took abt 1.5 hrs? Reali din seem so. Lol~
Rain's still nt letting up..mkg me slpy but still in d process of making smtg..will c it in my nxt post. Hopefuli it'll b done b4 my eyes close on me n I fall dwn my chair as I doze off.
Sudd thot of dis..tink I saw it b4 in some movie..
"Everything in dis world can b bargained, except the truth. Every lie comes with a price. Human memories r too complicated. After some time, u can't even rem if it's true or isit jus ur imagination."
Went home 4 din on Fri. Took bus 62 frm Aljunied. It's been a yr+ since I last took dis bus..used 2 take it home every evening. Hw cm I nv realised hw long d route was..or mb cos dis time, I was taking it alone. Cheers at d mrt station is no longer dere, many of d roads tt were under construction den, r nw completed. Ah well..I guess, etg will move on sooner or later..
Nobody was home so I caught a little nap. Woke up n realised bro was at hm all along? :P House 2 big la huh? Lol~ Oh oh! N my babies cut hair le! Nw dey look like 4 hairless chickys! :D Cldnt get them still enuff 2 take a pic so I took a few snaps of Momo frm mum's hp..
As usual, mum cooked a deeelicious spread n I cld barely move after din. Slacked awhile den bathed n went bk office cos my dear dear was workin late. Watched vcd while waiting 4 him 2 knock off den went hm 2 get car car to go Cine 2 catch Casino Royale.
Dis show is so draggy!! I barely understood it at all until darling explained it 2 me! Mb was 2 tired le ah..n dere were so many Xs I thot was d ending..but nooo!! It still continued on! Niwaes..ya, it finali ended wif mi still in a blur state of mind :P Mb d show is nice ah..jus tt u haf 2 watch it wen u r awake?
Den 2 Coffee Club 4 supper n homie after tt..super tired -.-zzz N yes dear, tt's y I need u in my life..2 explain tgs I don understand 2 me..n I don jus mean d movies (:
Both of us off ytd. He came 2 pick me n we went Clementi 2 eat my zai mifen *ding dong woman..wait 4 u I starve 2 death le *sticks out tongue* Den went Vivo 2 watch HAPPY FEET!!!! :D!!
I noe I'm 2 old 4 dis but I canot get enuff of dese pengys!! Esp d small 1s! Omg..dey r so impossibly cute!!! *hippity hop..tippity tap* :D
Den went Orchard 2 walk walk. Dearie got me a book called "The Rules Of Work" tt he insists I haf 2 read. Hoo boy~ Wonder hw long dis is gona take me..hees~ But oki la, words quite big..shd b able 2 finish fast :P
Den homie 4 din. His parents prepared a meal tt in my recollection, I've onli seen in wedding dinners or big bdae celebrations..but of cos, dinner 2nite tasted much much nicer dan any restaurant meal.
Full full le. Rested awhile den went 2 West Coast Park Mac 4 a drink n sundae n fries. Yep, all dis wen I was alrd v.full :P Craving la..hehes~ Den walk walk abit ard d park den homie le cos dearie has 2 gt up early 4 work in d morn =/
Oh well, anor hapi wk gona b over soon. Time seems 2 fly by dis yr. Thanksgiving is over n b4 u noe it'll b Xmas n boom! New Yr's! 2006 will b over in a flash. Ah well, but it doesnt matter 2 mi cos I noe regardless time passing fast or slow, I'll haf my little boy accompanying mi every step of d way (:
1:26 AM
Friday, November 24, 2006
So ya, work was a screw-up 2dae, spent half a day folding a mountain of letters, faxing dono wat stmts, den left office. Ahh...headache. Oh btw, nw I got 4 days off til nxt Tues, NOT by choice. Any1 wana date me?? =X
Hmm..it's time 2 go home 4 din..miss my mum's cooking so much..miss them 2 n my little babies. Ate garlic bread 4 din. Ntg even comes close 2 d garlic bread bread I used 2 eat almst e'nite ):
I realised 2 things recently.
1. I've nv been 1 who's responsible 2 ni1. Don like 2 report or ans 2 ppl wat I do, where I go etc. But smhw I realised 4 d past mth, e'nitty gritty tg tt happened 2 me, where I go, wat I ate etc..I'll wana tell him. D reason 4 e'smile or frown on my face, he's d 1st n onli person I'll wana let noe.
2. In d past few yrs, wen ppl asked mi if I m hapi, I cld nv reali gif an ans. Was tokg 2 my bro while faxing some stmt dis afternoon so 4 tt split sec wasnt reali payin attn 2 wat he was saying. He asked mi if I m hapi nw..v.naturally I said yes. It was until he said "tt's gd" tt I realised hw easily it came out of me n hw much I meant it.
Yep, I'm hapi nw (:
Oh oh! Dearie finali collected his new car 2dae!! We can go 游车河 ard n c sunrise at East Coast Park le!! Nw I nd 2 shop 4 a bear couple 2 put in car car..hehes~ :D
We went 4 a walk ard Orchard 2 c d lightings 2nite. Ntg spectacular but it was still nice. I like d 4 diff colored pee-ing Xmas trees at d traffic lites outside Heerens..hehes~ Xmas mood is in d air. My fave hol of d yr (: N yep, as I guessed it..my little boy's working tt day n I'm off ): But well, at least we r both off on Xmas eve..can count dwn tgt :)
Reali, time spent tgt is nv enuff. Quoting frm u dear, "Even though we may just be walking down the street holding hands, time just seems to be so well-spent."
Tks dar, 4 gifing up so much of ur slp eday 2 accompany me..who ask u 2 haf a gf who's a nite owl? :P But 2 late 4 regrets..tho I noe u wun haf any (n_n)y
2 more days 2 Happy Feet!! *Hapi*!!
2:55 AM
Thursday, November 23, 2006
N so..apparently it was nt my last day so I still gotta go bk 2 work 2dae which is ntg 2 look 4wd 2 cos my dearie's off =/ Nihoos, tink I put on like 5kg jus frm ytd? :P Met my da jie 4 lunch..n dis was wat she ordered 4 both of us..
Yep, she noes my appetite. But said she was hungry n so... :P
Den dinner wif my Ah Nic kor kor @ Siam Kitchen..
But of cos, he finished most of d stuff den blamed me 4 stuffing him..yep, he oso noes my appetite de. Hehs~
Oh oh! Dear, d fountain is up again ! But hor..it looked nicer b4 dey did nitg 2 it..nw nt v.nice le..
Den went Paulander 4 a drink n he walked mi back 2 office 2 wait 4 my little boy 2 knock off (:
Watched my vcd while waiting..til abt 12+ am..den we walked frm office 2 Mr Bean's 4 a drink n yep, supper :P Den walked ard 4 abit..went hm ard 4am -.-zzz Time flies wen u r hafg fun ):
Oh oh! Saw dis beeeautiful Xmas tree outside The Cathay! So pinky!! :D
N sighs..my little boy is so so swt. B4 he went 2 work ytd, he went 2 get me a little bear 2 put on my desk!
N d best part was, jus d day b4, during my dinner time, I got him a little bear snowglobe n left it on his table after he went home! Hehes~ We got amazing telepathy :)
N he got me anor bear wen he had din at Mos Burger!
Sighs..I noe I'm childish but so wat? I've got a bf who loves pampering me..lalala~ :D
Sighs..time 2 go work le ): See u 2nite sweety.. *muacks*
10:34 AM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Yep, d woman's a little erratic dis morn. Tink she hasnt gotten her daily dose of medicine =/
Drinks & supper at Winebos wif my little bean after work last nite. So long nv c her le..she's still d same. Eat 1 piece of food n force me 2 finish d rest..sighs~ Niways, chat chat chat..den had 2 go cos beanie's workin 2dae while I'm off!! Oops! Sees beanie running after me..but hees...飞飞 can fly!! *Woosh! Flies in2 d air n waves bye bye 2 beanie* :D
Ger ger, dis is 1 of my fave quotes..tink it applies 2 u..Life will find it's way, so will u. Tgs will work themselves out..don tink 2 much k? *huggies*
Oh no..sky looks threatening ): Supp 2 mt my da jie 4 lunch..n if I fly her aeroplane 1 more time I tink she's gg 2 disown me le ): Better get out soon :P
*Happily bouncing in my bubble..boing boing boing* Counting dwn 2 2nite wen I'll c my little boy again!
Nice song ):
11:13 AM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Wat can I say? Despite d complexity of eday life..n d worries of survival, I feel like I'm living in a protected bubble n he's my shield, repelling etg tt's harmful away frm me.
I'm tryin 2 b more mature 4 u but cant seem 2 do it cos u alwys mk mi feel like a little ger. Wat 2 do? Well, shall cont living in my beautiful world where trust, is once again a real thing..n happiness, can b a reality. I once thot tt dese 2 words haf bc fictitious..but in dis past 1 mth, smhw I've learnt d true meaning of dese words again. Hw often can u find sm1 u love? Nt v.often. Hw often can u find sm1 who loves u as much as u love him? Hardly ever. Cant believe hw lucky I m (:
Yep, been putting on weight wif my daily late nite suppers. But I don care. Our regular porridge stall was closed last nite so we went Mei Shi Jie 2 haf our supper. Poor dearie was so hungry cos of some roadshow thingy, he din haf his din til 10+ wen I knocked off ): I was oso starving cos..well, I alwys m wen I work dis shift la :P Den as usual, walk 2 d train station n homie le (: So hapi**
Oki, time 2 get ready 4 work. Sighs..so mafan..my unofficial last day's 2dae but no1 has told mi nitg yet =/ But in my mind I've alrd planned so many tgs 2 do if it's my last day 2dae..hehes~ 1.5 more hrs 2 seeing my little boy!
*skips off 4 lunch*
10:41 AM
Monday, November 20, 2006
To my dearest beanie
Life is nv smooth-sailing but tgs r made easier wen u noe even on ur crappiest day, dere r ppl who care 4 u..jus like ur little fly fly..who's alwys here 2 bring u on a flight high up in d sky, drop dwn oso nm cos I haf parachutes on board! :D
Ger, don b upset nimore k? Lighter spoil..pls throw is away n don buy nimore new 1s =X
Alwys here 4 u, my dear.. (:
8:57 AM
My little boy is back!! I'm d happiest ger in d world again!! :D
Sorry dear, 4 neglecting ur feelings..I reali din mean 2. But I swear, my thots were on u e'min u were away frm me, counting dwn d hrs 4 u 2 return 2 my side. I'm 2 used 2 doin wat I wan w/o tinkg of otrs..will change frm nw on. I noe u wan mi 2 b myself but mb I've reali been 2 self-involved b4 =/ 2 bad la, onli child is lydet de :P But darling, u've got absolutely ntg 2 worry abt..like I've told u, no1 has d ability 2 take mi away frm u? (:
N tks, sweety..for comin all d way back 2 office 2 acc mi 4 supper n send mi hm even wen ur eyes can barely stay open. N I appreciate hw much u've changed 4 me..putting work as 2nd priority nw. I noe hw hard tt is 4 u :) E'moment spent wif u..is a moment tt I'll treasure 4ever.
*muacks*
1:13 AM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
It's amazing hw much u can miss sm1. N hw contradicting dis feeling can b. Tho tortourous but u cant help smiling 2 urself. I don rem ever missing any1 dis much in my life..haf I? N no dear, I'm nt mad at u 4 falling aslp last nite..cos I did 2? :P
Counting dwn d hrs 4 my little boy 2 come back..n 2 b back in his arms again :D
Met Kel 4 a drink after work last nite cos we both wanted 2 watch d ManU match. Combed d whole Boat Quay 2 find my Erdinger draft. Finali found it at d beginning of d stretch at Penny Black. Wat a waste of time :P Some finger food, beer n watched d rest of d ManCity v Fulham match n waited 4 d ManU 1 2 start.
@#$! At 2255, dey dec'd 2 switch 2 dono wat stupid Australian ruby game!! Who watches Australian ruby on a Sat nite wen dere's EPL? Gosh~ N d rest of d pubs were playing d Chelsea match. Sighs..so we walked walked walked..finali found a ktv pub wif a tiny tv playin tt. But cld barely watch nitg cos of all d horrible singing inside. After 1st half, we left le..tired tired.
It was fun, despite d tedious job of finding a place 2 watch..lol~ Been a long time since I had dese beer-football nites le..since WC? Ya, tink so. On d way home, he drove mi 2 d Tuas checkpoint..he said tt d causeway looks v.nice at nite. N oso cos he wanted 2 test d speed limit of his car..hahs~
Hmm..u noe wen I was at d checkpt, got d thot of driving over 2 go c u..but hor..I din haf my passport wif me so..well.. =/
Yipee! My long awaited Happy Feet is showing sooooon..finali!! I wana watch!! Pengys r so cute!! *skip skip skip*
Still gt 1 week..so 4 nw, I'll jus haf 2 mk do wif all d trailer clips tt my dearie had downloaded 4 mi..hehes (n_n)o
Back 2 my boring show. Sighs~ I'm gona miss dis peace n quiet ard office once Mon comes again ):
Tick tock tick tock..miss u dear dear (:
Sighs..wat a genius I m. Stupid system kept prompting mi 2 change pw n nw I've locked myself out of my own access =/ D unlocking is taking 4ever..hopefuli by tmr it'll b done, if nt I donid 2 work alrd. Luckily gt Kel..he lent mi his access..so I m still safe 4 2dae :P
Tink d ac here is nt working. I'm melting..gosh~ Half more hr 2 din..n 2 more hrs 2 my dearie coming back! (n_n)y
1:01 PM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
-.-zzz
Cant believe it. D stupid green lite's been blinking since I stepped in office at 1215. Until nw den d calls haf died dwn. Sighs..I don even dare 2 tink abt 2nite wen I'll b d onli 1 taking housing loan calls..I was estatic wen I found sm1 else who's oso on dis queue..but my colleg told me tink she's on mc. Sighs..hope he's wrong =X
Real quiet ard here. Oh oh! I had pizza 4 lunch. N prob 4 din too. Ordered by office, as a way of compensating us nt gg 2 d team-building thingy in JB. Ah well..nt a great fan of Pizza Hut..cos deir pizzas r so filling..bu xi huan =/
Sighs..miss my dear dear so much. It's weird hafg dis feeling tt he's so far away frm me. Even tho I was jus wif u a few hrs ago last nite n jus said goodbye 2 mi dis morn..smhw feels v.long le ):
Ah well, at least got ur jacky 2 acc me 2nite..yep yep, I'm wearing ur jacket nw :P U alwys say u hate me 4 mkg u love mi so much..nw I hate u 4 mkg me miss u so much. U've gotten ur revenge, boy =/
*squeak squeak* So quiet. Hahas~ I haf so many drinks on my table nw. Got a canned drink which my colleg gave me 4 2nite, d green tea frap frm Starbucks, 2 mineral water bottles n dearie's mug. Ya rite, as if I m gg 2 finish etg :P
Hmm..my Gz is sick at home, say it's cos Mz nv tc of him? Lol~ N stupid guy alwys don go c doc 1. Oie, u better go c doc n take mc if still nt well on Mon ah..if nt I'll kick u =X
Hmm..lite's nt blinking nimore. Tink can start watching my vcd? Hmm..wait awhile more la..gd things nv last de.
Sighs~ Anor 8.5 hrs to 10pm. Oh gosh! =( I miss u darling.
1625. My dinner time. Waiting 4 kfc n yep, u guessed it..pizza. D drilling's driving mi insane. Ahhh!! My show's putting me 2 slp -.-zzz
Hmm..Xmas's coming..so nice (: So looking 4wd. Hopefully little boy doesnt haf 2 work? :P But seems quite unlikely. Hees, little boy's bdae comin soon. Was surfg ard 4 his pressie..found wat 2 get u le..tink u'll like it ;p
5.5 more hrs 2 go. Woohoo! Din's ntg much 2 look 4wd 2..but supper is :D Where's my chicky..hungry ): Tink by d time it comes my din time over le =X
1815. 4 hrs 15 more mins. Had my *blehz* pizza n a mountain of chicky 4 din. Tink I'm off pizza 4 d nxt mth *shivers* I got $18 4 din tmr. Ni1 wana join me? Hehes~
Finali got 2 tok 2 beanie (: Hope u r feeling better dear ger. Rem my wings n parachutes r alwys ready 2 take u 4 a flight :D
Hmm..did I mention I miss my little boy? ): Wat r u doin nw dear dear? I'm nt countg dwn 2 day end..I'm counting dwn 2 u comin back tmr afternoon..
Tink I shall stop here b4 I put every1 under my slpg spell. I'm a tranquilizer to onli 1 person..rite dear? *winks* It's amazing hw a simple msg can brighten up my whole day..sighs~ *dreamy* Miss u lots 2.. *muacks*
1:30 PM
Friday, November 17, 2006
Hapi bdae Shanice! Soz 4 MIA-ing dis 2 days..owe ya a treat k ger? May all ur wishes come true! :D
I was bored 2dae so dec'd 2 get a horoscope book 2 flip. I've nv believed in horoscopes but smtg amazingly accurate in d book caught my eye.
Nv realised dere r actuali 3 types of Virgo..look at wat I'm described as :P
D last sentence is so true..esp d 钻牛角尖 part. Little ant, Andrea n Shian..actuali I wanted 2 write urs dwn oso 1..but hor..2 many words I dono hw 2 read la..hees~ Mb I lend Ivan d book, he can write on his blog 4 u :P
Dis is my compatibility wif my little boy. He's 火象男 n I'm 土象女. N according 2 d book, d place we're mst likely 2 get 2 noe each otr is..ta-dah!! 公司或提案会议中! Lol~
Hmm..so far so gd? My little boy doesn't haf any temper tt I noe of..n well, I may b stubborn but d swt him alwys gifs in 2 mi de..so shd b fine 4 nw :P
N apparently, in 2007, I'm supp 2 mt a lot of 小人. But I tink 4 d past 1.5 yrs, I've alrd been dealing wif d worst 小人 I can ever possibly meet le. N since tt pest is alrd outta my life, I forsee a peaceful, 小人-less life nxt yr? Esp wif my little boy in amour + sword + shield, protecting mi against etg..wat do I haf 2 worry 4? :D
Alrighty! I'm done wif my practise of hanyu pin yin, which I m still pretty proud of, considering d fact tt d last time I studied 4 chn was wat? 7 yrs ago? :P
Hmm..let's c, last nite..din wif dearie's frds @ CityLink. Den a walk ard Esplande n to Flo 4 a drink. Time spent tgt nv seems 2 b enuff. B4 we knew it, it was alrd almst 2am n we had 2 go home le ):
Airport 2 pick up my aunt n cuz 2dae. Smhw travelling 2 d east side alwys mks mi feel a pinch in my heart. Almst wanted 2 go home n c my babies ): Niwaes, ya..was contemplating 2 go Bkk wif d big 1 dey all but well, cant bear 2 leave my little boy 4 so long..esp during Xmas..so don even nd 2 tink abt it :P
Speaking of gg overseas.. ): He's leaving town 4 d weekend while I'll b stuck at work..sighs, reali gona miss u dear.
Okie! Back 2 my wrestling vcd! (: Rem d time wen sm1 wld try 2 find all d wrestling shows downloadable on d net n burn them in2 dvd 4 mi 2 watch..doesn't seem 2 long ago..but in actual fact it is. Time flies doesn't it? Time erases certain memories..or mb dey were nv meant 2 b treasured in d 1st place.
8:02 PM
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Been a long time since I woke up so late. Mb it's cos of d nice gg-to-rain weather? Or cos it doesnt mk much sense 2 wk up early on my off day? Or cos I noe my little boy wun b online 2 chat wif mi as he's at work? Or mb it's cos of d swt dreams I've been hafg?
Ah well, tink it's a little of everything :D
Blogger asked mi 2 update a new version of my blog. Any diff? Doesnt seem 2 b.. *scratch head*
Well, life's gd, in fact it's beautiful. Watched e'single episode of Friends while waitg 2 hrs 4 him 2 knock off d past 3 nites. I ended work at 10pm while he finished ard 12am. Was I tired? Yes. Will I wait dis way again e'nite? Yes, I will.
Took a long long walk frm office to Clarke Quay to MS to River Valley. Nite wind was cold but 4 d rest of my life, I'll nv haf 2 feel cold again :)
Prata supper @ River Valley..den anor short walk. Was abt 3am wen we reached home..poor boy had 2 wake up at 7am 4 work ):
Oh oh! Here's a little smtg frm my dear's blog..found it quite meaningful :P
Love (according to Compact Oxford English Dictionary) Noun 1 an intense feeling of deep affection. 2 a deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone. 3 a great interest and pleasure in something. 4 a person or thing that one loves.
Sweet sweet ("v")
Oki, gotta run b4 tt stupid 1 stick kills mi 4 being late. Toodles little 1s!
Don ask hw cld I haf stop needing u. Hw do u start needing sm1 who's nv dere? N hw do u stop needing sm1 whom u cld nv start to need?
12:40 PM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
I rem a time, nt 2 long ago..I was counting dwn 2 my last day at work, cldnt wait 2 end my contract n get out. But nw..I dread it as each day ends..which means I've gt 1 day lesser 2 acc him in office ):
Oh! I was forced 2 move 2 anor seat jus nw. Was quite pissed cos I had 2 move so far away frm my little boy. But hees..gt some reali cute toys on tt desk tt brightened my 5 hrs up a wee bit. Cute hor? :P
I can live in dis routine. Even waiting 4 sm1 4 2 hrs can b so blissful. Taking d same walk, eating d same supper e'nite.
I alwys believe tt gd things don last..n tt there r 3 words tt I'll nv b able 2 say 2 ni1 else..cos I wun b able 2 feel tt way again. I reali hope tt d same way he had proved 2 mi d latter is untrue, he'll show mi tt d former is false as well.
Ur daily dose of sugar brighten up my edae. N boy, don kp tinkg dis is a dream. I've pinched u so many 2 show u tt it's reality.
My silly boy Alwys tinkg abt death Mks me worried Wat'd I do if 1 day u r nt ard 2 take care of me nimore?
Hope etg is nt jus a 3-min flame n all d words we've said..will alwys stay true (:
2:13 AM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Alot of thots floating ard my head. A part of me feels so incredibly 幸福 tt I cant stop smiling 2 myself frm d min I wake up 2 his 1st msg to d min I fall aslp reading his last msg.
Eday feels so simple yet fulfilling. Sm1 who's alwys by my side, being my mobile heater, taking care of my every need & want, mkg mi smile, mkg mi feel like a pampered little ger, picking out spring onions 4 me, picking out all d little corns 2 gif me, remembering etg I like etc. Even d Xs wen he's nt ard, he'll do his best 2 mk mi feel tt he's jus rite bs me (:
But anor part of me..sighs, I feel..I've reali let sm1 dwn. My heart hurts. Sm1 who had been ntg but an angel 2 mi d past 4 yrs. Sm1 who had given me all d best tgs in life..n showed mi love can b tt pure n innocent. Ur msgs 2nite cut me deep but I noe I've left even deeper scars in ur heart. I noe u wun b tt harsh 2 me de tt's y I understand ur pain. I noe ntg I say nw will change nitg..but jus believe tt I've nv lied 2 u. Reali. N tks so much 4 being so concerned abt mi..even til nw. I'll tc of myself de..u muz find ur own happiness 2 k? My guardian angel..I'm so sorry ): D last request u ask of me, yes..I'll b ur frd 4ever.
0222. Nice time :) Hmm..time 4 beddie le. Nite wind's chilly but yea, memory of d warmth frm ur hands will kp mi warm til I c u later (:
1:45 AM
Monday, November 13, 2006
Turns out I do haf a few mins 2 pen dwn some words, so here's wishing my dearest little cussie a HAPI HAPI BDAE!!! Soz ah, I workin nite 2dae so cant celebrate wif u. Hope all ur wishes come true (:
Ktv wif her in d afternoon. 5 hrs..almst died. After abt 4 hrs, we've exhausted d whole list of songs 2 sing n my eyes were closing, throat bursting. So we spent d nxt half hr jus listening 2 songs.
Den din @ d same old restaurant at Jurong East again. I tink dis restaurant is unofficially my whole family's bdae celebration pl. Lol~
D bdae cake was so pretty! Wif d huge strawberries!! Prettier dan mine..unfair =/ N of cos, d bdae babies (:
I don reali eat cakes but dis was so pretty tt I took a bite. Tink tt 1 bit gave mi an overdose of sugar cos it's all chocolate!! Smhw it has abit of wine in it n I tink my cussie got high. Was talking crap 2 mi d whole nite on msn wen we went hm -.-'''
(: Heard dis song jus nw..find it v.simple n swt. He alwys say tt I'm a v.simple n real ger. Hahas, I'll bet e'single person reading dis nw will disagree rite? Niwaes, d lyrics of dis song is wat I wana say 2 u..if I m reali simple nw, it's bc u mk mi wana disregard all my complications (:
Hopefuli all my weirdness will b kept in check n all dis wun ever change. Tks 4 all d beautiful words 2nite..reali sweet~
12:40 AM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Hapi bdae daddy!!! Oh, n hapi 1-day advance bdae little cussie! (Jus in case I gt no time 2 blog tmr :P)
Work was quite fast ytd, cos got him accompanying mi on msn n my 2 clowns ard :P Lunch wif my fave boys @ d same Korean restaurant near my office. Hot hot soup in d stormy weather..can't complain :D
Cats n dogs still fallin frm d sky after we were done. Clint ran away in a cab so mi n Jac sat at a nearby coffee shop 2 chat while waiting 4 my little boy 2 come shelter mi wif an umbrella :P
Rain was pouring like mad, wind blowing like crazy, I was soaked even tho I was sheltered..but nt 4 a sec did I feel cold..in fact, I felt so so warm. Tks 4 d swt surprise, my dear.. *smilez*
Went 2 d Motor Show at Suntec. No particularly pretty babes ard, cars were ok..d exciting part of d whole tg was d stun performance by Russ Swift. His manoeuvres were amazing! Took some videos but canot upload here so too bad :P
Din at Dome cafe, den took a stroll 2 Acid Bar 2 mt Di, Steven, my long-lost bud, Ter n Kristine 4 a drink. Homie after tt..was so tired, fell aslp almst immediately after my bath -.zzz
My dear ger, no matter wat ur decision is, I'll support u. I jus don wan u 2 go thru wat I went thru. Even tho I kp bickering wif him, I still feel tt he's a reali nice guy..don hurt him either k? No matter hw hard it is, ur own happiness is still mst impt..jus look at me..I'm hapi nw :P Alwys here 4 u ger, b it 4 a listening ear or helping u finish ur drink (:
Hmm..off 2dae..gona spend sm quality time wif my family..been a long time since I sat dwn 4 a meal wif them. But smhw my thots r smwhere far away in my office.. *smilez* Miss u..
12:17 PM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
It's d simple tgs in life tt gifs u d joy of looking 4wd 2 waking up e'morn.. (:
Life is v.simple 4 mi nowadays. Eday at work, all I wan is tt he's rite behind me, alwys dere wen I nd help, counting dwn tgt d time we knock off..if he donid 2 do shift. Den go 4 din or jus take an aimless stroll ard tgt n go hm. After he sends me hm, I'll shower n jus sit in front of my comp, wait 4 him 2 reach hm online n chat wif me til bedtime. N I'll go 2 bed, looking 4wd 2 5 hrs later wen I'll mt him on d way n go 2 wk tgt again..n d cycle repeats eday.
I wonder hw long dis simple n swt life will last?
I heard dis song on my way 2 work dis morn..张信哲's 做你的男人. N it's been playing in my head repeatedly d whole day..好甜蜜的感觉哦 (:
Mt Di n her ***, Steven after din 4 a drink @ Forbidden City Indochine at Clarke Quay.
Chat chat chat..den homie le. Work at 8am again -.-zzz
I'm tryin v.hard 2 treasure wat I haf nw..I don wan 2 complicate my life again. Some tgs I noe r still dere n will alwys b dere. I wun allow nitg 2 distract me 4 nw so I wun go n c..but yes, I noe it's alwys dere..
曾经答应你一定会给你消息 希望你也为我多疼疼自己 别再伤心别为我哭泣
1:36 AM
Friday, November 10, 2006
I haven had such a relaxed n comfy day in a long long time.
He kpt thinkg wat 2 do 2dae but I asked him donid 2 plan nitg at all. We jus wanted 2 spend some time tgt since we were both off 2dae. Brunch @ Clementi central, den 2 Cine 2 watch Flushed Away!
It's such a cute show!! My gdness~ Laughing thru-out d whole show. N d slugs r so so cute! :P *Lone-lyyy..I'm Mr Lone-lyyy...* Hahahas~
Wen d show ended, cats n dogs were still falling frm d sky so we went 2 get a drink..jus sitting dere, watching trailers, chatting (:
Rain stopped, walked 2 Kino 2 catch up on my wrestling mags..den 2 PS 2 get my nails done. Den din at dis new Raman store at d Atrium. Nice nice!
Full full le :D Took a long slow walk 2 Chijmes 4 a drink.
Den homie 2 d park near my hse 4 a walk. Nite breeze was cold but I was not (: Tks 2 my little boy :D
He was so stressed over a stupid cust 2dae (yes, even on his off day he's still working =/)..so I bot him a little chipmunk 2 cheer him up..hehes~ Hope it helped in some way, little boy :P
Hapi day 2dae. C, I told u donid 2 plan de..it was still an njoyable day rite? Smtimes it reali isnt wat u r doin but who u r wif tt matters.. (:
Yea, it's a cold cold nite but d memories of u will keep me warm..until I c u again in d morn *smilez*
12:20 AM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
In d mst unexpected pl, at d mst unexpected time, d fate of 2 mst unexpected persons intertwined.. (:
As I wade further in2 my sea of bliss, all of a sudden, I can't help but feel scared as well. Fear of my past catching up wif me again..n den history will repeat itself n all my weirdness will resurface ):
I don ask 4 much. Jus wana stay in dis simple happiness 4 as long as life lets me. Even d smallest tgs like getting me Newpaper, he'll do everything 2 nt let me dwn.. *touched*
2 all my dear frds, esp my grp of piggies, who r tryin so hard 2 decipher my recent entries..well, all I can say tt I'm tryin 2 maintain my current un-complicated life n live in dis heaven 4 as long as I can. N don worry, d reason 4 dis sudden change is nt wat/who u all tink it is..reali (:
Love is nt abt comparing. So don compare k? Happiness is wen 2 ppl jus njoy spending time tgt..n even d Xs apart, u try ur v.best 2 fill up d void..tt's enuff le :D N don tink so much k, little boy? As I managed 2 melt ur ice walls, u managed 2 scale mine (:
0120. Accompanying him on msn as he's still working..actuali, waiting 4 sm1 2 come home..is quite a sweet feeling (: But hor..dono y he alwys got so much 2 do de.. =/
0129. Finali got my Ah Nic kor kor 2 go 2 bed. My gosh..he's been haunting mi d whole evening since ard 9+ tt he wans 2 slp..n until nw den he finali does *phew* He nv fails 2 drive me crazy..but in a reali cute way la (**) :D
0220. I seem 2 b seeing stars alrd..but little boy is still in office. Amazing rite? =/ I'm so hungry..cant wait 4 brunch later ):
0235. Oops! Closed my eyes 4 awhile n he's off work le :P Beddy!! :P *muacks*
1:05 PM
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
I don dread gg 2 work nimore. Even tho he's nt workin in d morn like me, thru d msgs n etg, it feels like he's alwys sitting rite behind me (:
Time seemed 2 crawl in d morn but after 2pm, it flew :P Dwn wif a sorethroat n flu but no more mc 2 take..actuali I oso don wana take la ;P Coughing d whole morn til my special delivery boy brot me strepsils n iced tea *smilez*
Din @ a Korean restaurant wif Jac & Clint after work. Clint said "trust me, I noe d way." N den he brot us on a merry-go-round 4 abt 20 mins wen d pl was jus a 5-mins walk away..lol~ Seems like nt e1 is qualified 2 use dese 2 words eh? :P
Turned out 2 b quite nice. Den 2 Archipelago 4 a drink..n tt was after a long long debate. Jac needed a pl where dere's coffee n can smoke. Clint n I wanted alcohol. Gg out wif both of them is alwys an adventure. Dey nv fail 2 get in2 some funi arguement. It's hillarious :D
Back 2 office 2 surprise my little boy. Nw I'm home n super tired -.-zzz Dono isit d alcohol or isit d million thots tt's running thru my head..cant slp ): Sighz..2 my angel, tks 4 etg..I noe wat tt qn means..but..I'm sorry.
-.-
It's 2324 nw..let's c, 6 more mins..will my hp ring? *hmmm...* Doubt so :P
2332. Ah-hah! I was rite! :P Gif u anor 15 mins.. ~.-
Oh ya, Brose! MOS!!! :P N stop wif ur nonsense ok? Hahahs~
08/11/06. Ah well..wat cld've been, wld've been. I'm sure u'd agree. Rite? 2 yrs is nt a long time, neither isit short. It's gotta end smwhere..n like alwys, I jus wan u 2 b hapi..hope u will truely understand wat love is 1 day (: Take care alwys..
12:32 AM
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
In dis world, I tink d least qualified person 2 say "好男人全都死光了" shd b me.
I nv haf 2 worry abt falling, cos u r alwys dere 2 catch me. I nv haf 2 worry abt a packed train, cos u r alwys dere 2 mk sure no1 bumps in2 me. I nv haf 2 worry abt d rain, cos u r alwys dere 2 shelter me. I nv haf 2 worry abt ppl tryin 2 b funi wen clubbing, cos u r alwys dere 2 mk sure no1 gets near me.
"Trust me." Dese 2 words I've heard it frm so many ppl, so many Xs..until I find d truth content of it quite laughable. So I nv believed in believing. Even tho etime he said "trust me", I jus smiled. Until nw.
It was a hair-raising day at work again 2dae. Ard 3+ pm, I was complaining abt hw dready dis Mon afternoon was. His reply was "..day gona end soon. It will jus b better nw. Trust me :)" Den he left 4 his meeting. I read his email n con'ted pulling my hair over some stupid housing loan contract.
Abt 5 mins later, my phone rang. I was ready 2 pounce on whoever tt was 2 destress. D recept told me 2 come out 2 collect smtg. In my fazed mood, I jus went..nitg 4 a break.
On d table, sat a bunch of gorgeous lillies. My fave flower. Wif a card but w/o any sender name. Took me quite awhile 2 gather my thots n realise who it was frm..
My collegs debated over who d sender was. Me? I jus kept my silly grin, all d way til 6pm. Sudd d gloomy, rainy Mon afternoon seemed so much brighter. I'm nv gona doubt ur words nimore. Tks 4 d lovely surprise (:
Dinner @ Imperier Treasure at Marina Sq. It's a total replica of 翡翠拉面小笼包. Etg tastes d same! D whole menu is d same!! Niwaes, full full le..den took a slow walk 2 1 Fullerton 4 a drink.
We went 2 Flo..nice nice pl. Chatted 4 a couple of hrs, had my fave strawberry margarita..he had dis passion-pepsi thingy..cos little boy nt supp 2 drink nimore dis mth :P
Den homie le cos gotta work early tmr. Tks little boy, 4 d wonderful evening (:
N nw, I'm gg 2 bed wif a smile on my face :) N dis smile will stay as long as u r here..
12:11 AM
Monday, November 06, 2006
HAPI BDAE MY DEAREST DADDY! HAPI BDAE JOE!!
Went hm in d afternoon 2 celebrate dad n Joe's bdae. Bro bot a nice nice Oreo thingy cake..
Mum cooked my fave curry 4 din!! 1st Sun of d mth is usuali family day n our relatives will cm over 2 haf din tgt. Haven felt so full in a long time le..nice warm feeling (:
N of cos, my beloved babies..jus cant get enuff of them :D
Hapi bday..hope u like all d gifts..n most imptly, stay hapi alwys. Tks 4 2nite. Without me by ur side, rem 2 tc of urself (:
12:18 AM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
03.11.06 D look in his eyes etime I mention I'm leaving, Jac's depression n refusal 2 spk 2 me, Dyl's daily emails asking if I've reconsidered, Clint's consistent persuasion n of cos, nagging..dese images haunted me d whole day during work ytd. As an ans 2 my dilema 4 d past few days, I stood up n walked 2 my mgr. I'm definitely nt stayin but I wanted 2 ask 4 an extension. N as fate wld haf it, dis was exactly wat she wanted 2 tok 2 me abt as well.
So nw I haf 2 decide if I wana extend 1 or 2 mths, depending on wen my sch starts. I had alrd started my count-dwn to dis mth end 4 my last day n njoy a tai-tai life. Nw I haf 2 re-count all over again. Staying on means 1-2 more mths of ... but well..sighs, nm. But d looks on my 3 dear boys' faces wen I told them, it is worth it.
Dinner n movie @ Cine wif Eric last evening after work.
Ok. Dis show had a slpg spell which worked v.well. I tink I fell aslp 4 awhile during d show. Besides d reali cute guys, dere's reali ntg much 2 look 4 in dis show.
After tt met Di n her *ah-hum* frd, Steven @ Bugis 2 go ButterFactory. Haf heard 2 much abt tt pl but turned out 2 b quite a disappointment. At least 2 me la. 1stly, d queue was freaking slow. We wld've cleared a similar length queue at MOS in 5 mins but it took us almst an hr here! My gosh! But in a way gd oso la cos 1 stick n her *ah-hum* frd were late as well..so d timing worked out jus fine.
Hahas, as a compensation 4 losing all d pics we took at MOS last Sat, I re-enacted d sences wif Di again..but tt was after constant coaxing cos she's afraid tt I'll lose them again. Ta-dah! I din!! :D
FRIENDS 4EVER! (:
MUACKIES!!
N den somemore...
N of cos...
Tks 4 ur unbelievable understanding, patience n tolerance. Tks 4 standing by me, providing me wif solutions 2 probs I cant solve, both work-wise n personal. Tks 4 being my shield. Tks 4 gifg me d courage 2 take tt 1 more step 4wd. Tks 4 making me believe.. (:
4 of us left ard 2am cos I was starving. Went 2 eat d nice nice ba kut teh @ MS..den homie le cos I was working 9am d nxt day =/ Totali tired out..but hapi (n_n)o
04.11.06
Cld hardly wk up. Gosh..so tired. Niwaes, work was quite a breeze, nt many calls..spent my whole 5 hrs surfing net, msn, n chatting wif my dear collegs. 2pm, logged out immediately n flew 2 Orchard 2 mt Eric 4 lunch n he accompanied me 2 get pressie 4 my dearest daddy!
Got him a bluetooth headset..den went homie 4 a rest. Reached hm, played wif my babies 4 awhile n concussed str8 away. Wen I was awokened in a reali nice way, it was almst 6pm! N our din booking was at 7!
Family din 2 celebrate dad n Joe's bdae at our usual restaurant, 老北京 cos we love d Peking duck dere..nice nice! N oso gt bro's fave red bean pancake..hehes~ After a super filling din, went shopping ard 4 awhile n mum wanted 2 buy somemore jigsaw puzzles 2 fix :P
Home swt home again, spent d rest of d nite fixing puzzles wif mum n chatting..until ard 12am. N our cute little babies, Dobby n Mopi laid at mum n my feet respectively d whole time, slpg. Nw it's 2am..n my eyes can barely open. Still nd 2 wake up early 2 acc her 2 market in d morn..woohoo~
It breaks my heart etime I haf 2 walk away n disappoint them..sighs~ N my baby Mopi..he's so cute my heart aches etime he whimps wen he c me walk out d door..
N it hurts me 2 c daddy upset..alot of tgs, u noe urself isit reasons or excuses. I don reali care but it doesnt mean I don care tt dad cares. Etg tt was said 2nite, I promise u I'll remember (:
Okie, bedtime le. If nt I'll b slpg til 3pm le..nites little 1s!
1:34 AM
Friday, November 03, 2006
- pending pending - *winks*
"I'm 23 dis yr n ppl ard me r expecting me 2 haf marriage plans. Dis is a thot furthest away frm my mind. Don tink ni1 will ever haf d ability of mkg me settle dwn?
Marriage causes so many probs..I'm nt sayin tt I nv will but..I dono, life jus seems so much easier w/o it? Lol~"
Work as usual 2dae. My dearest Jac is finali back (: So my afternoon wasnt so bored. But I was workin nite shift 2dae n had 2 spend d a torturous 4 hrs surfing youtube =/ Yea, I don like it cos screen's so small n blur. I'd rather jus buy d vcd. Was supp 2 go 4 Kel's bdae celebration thingy..but din go in d end. Eric came 2 pick me after work n we went LPS 4 supper cos I was freaking starving..den homie le cos long day 2 go tmr.
My memory card n casing n etg has been replaced. It's jus amazing. Tks little boy (:
Recent change of events haf been happening at a startling speed, I cant keep up. I feel myself falling off a cliff again.
日久生情, mayb? Watever it is, tks 4 nt running away n still staying put by my side.
Feeling of being totali pampered..jus like a little princess who throws tantrums at e1 but nobody will ever bear 2 scold her. A yr ago wen I entered Oc, it was my 1st step 2 regaining my own life. I onli wanted 2 get out of a nitemare n nv expected nitg else. A small part of me is still in tt life nw but I haf so much more. Stepping away frm tt life was d best decision I've ever made..cos it led me 2 where I m n wat I haf nw. N led me 2 d knowledge tt happiness nd nt necc haf 2 b forced. It can b real.
It's nw 1 yr later n I'm at d cross-roads once again but dis time, in a gd way. Where do I turn? I nd 2 mk dis decision quick..n either way, it's all abt u..
1:13 AM
Thursday, November 02, 2006
I had a v.simple day. No over-bearing truths, no hidden lies, no complications. Dono isit cos of d company or cos I haven felt so carefree n child-like 4 a long long time. Nw I'm bathed, slpy n m reminiscing my simple day wif a smile on my face (:
Brunch @ Clementi central 4 my fave zai mifen. After brunch went 2 Comcentre 2 settle my hp line den 2 Centrepoint CB 4 a drink. Were so engrossed wif chatting tt we lost track of time. Supp 2 catch a 1505 movie n wen we realised it, it was alrd 3pm! Lol~ Rushed over 2 Cine jus in time after d trailers :P
Show's abt gangsters in HK..quite meaningless. Every1 died in d end =/
It was pouring after d movie n even tho Doremon's bag had an umbrella, I din reali fancy jumping over puddles all tt much. So we settled dwn at Pastamania 4 din 1st. Den 2 Heeren 2 get some pressies n 2 ICB 4 a few beers. I had 3, he had 2..we were freezing like hell frm d cold weather n air con. I needed smtg hot n he sugg Crystal Jade which was nt v.intelligent cos it was obviously alrd closed =/ Went d HK cafe @ Cine..nt many choices of soups so we dec'd 2 share a mee sua thingy instd.
Chat chat chat..seriously, din noe we cld haf so much 2 tok abt :P Den he sent me home le.
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Thursday, November 30, 2006
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